Author Archives: Esther Hizsa

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About Esther Hizsa

Esther is a writer, spiritual director, and cofacilitates contemplative retreats and courses. She lives in Vernon, B.C. with her husband, Fred.

Just Sit There and Let Me Love You

When my eyelid started twitching, I knew my body was stressed. “You can slow down,” I heard God say to me in a spiritual direction session. That week, with the same tender concern Pastor Ruth said, “You don’t have to … Continue reading →

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A Little Resurrection

I was all packed and ready to go. But not quite. I needed to go over a couple of sessions I would lead during the Living from the Heart course one more time. Now I had a spacious hour that … Continue reading →

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Notice Me

As soon as the participants started arriving at the retreat centreI noticed something in meelbowed to the front and shoved my self aside. She wanted a hug from everyone and pouted when she didn’t get it.At the dinner table,she told … Continue reading →

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The Unholy Three

Fear is a powerful ally.It curbs my behaviour, motivates me, and keeps me safe.Would I be as nice if I didn’t fear judgment?Would I prepare and work so hard if I didn’t fear failure?Would I watch what I eat and … Continue reading →

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My Suffering

Sadness crept closer with each chapter I read. Then it slipped in beside me when the father left too. It was still there the next day and the day after that. Sadness kept coming in through the tiny crack of … Continue reading →

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Known

I am made of the earthand of its Creatorflesh and spirithuman, divineimpermanent and eternal. I will dieand before I dieI will have died and risen againhundreds of times. On the Saturdaybetween Good Fridayand Easter Sunday,I lay awake in the tomband … Continue reading →

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Just as You Promised

I fell asleep beside you in the tomband when I woke up you were gone and not gone. I looked up, and there you were looking down at meand smiling. “Good morning, my Beloved,”you said as if it wasn’t the most famous morningin … Continue reading →

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May We Love You

And, now, it is our turnto remind you of your belovedness, Dear One. This week, when you need to hear it most,may we greet you on the road, palms waving.May we wash your beautiful feet,savour our last meal,and feel the sting … Continue reading →

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Let Me Tell You Again

In that light-blindingmountaintopmoment,you heard Me say,“You are My beloved,”and you believed it. You held itclose,felt itthumping against your chestall the waydown. But oh, My love,here in the valley,where the traffic’s jammed with red lights,you get that look of disappointment,the day … Continue reading →

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My Second Podcast Interview

In this Hints of Gladness podcast, Rod Janz asks me about my new book In the Heart of the Beloved and the Everyday Pilgrim series. It was a fun conversation. I hope you enjoy listening to it. CLICK HERE TO … Continue reading →

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