Author Archives: Esther Hizsa

About Esther Hizsa

Esther is a spiritual director and writer. She lives in Burnaby with her husband, Fred, and they have two grown children and two grandchildren.

Creation Calls

Fred retired this year and, with his unrestricted schedule and my flexible one, we’ve spent a lot of time outside. Our last camping trip was to E.C. Manning Park where we hiked into alpine meadows, kayaked on Lightning Lake, and … Continue reading

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The Full Meal Deal

Admit it. We all want the full meal deal: nine gifts of the Spirit, every fruit  in a neat little package with our name printed on it and Christ, the only ingredient listed. We want what those people are having, … Continue reading

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The Gift of Self-Awareness

Lately, my self-awareness has risen to a whole new level. I swear there’s a little fellow deep inside me rummaging through all my crap and sending it up for me to look at. These “gifts” are about as attractive as … Continue reading

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Wrong Turns

“Are you okay?” the grey-haired man asked as I propped my bike against a hedge outside his yard. “Yes,” I said continuing to open the map on my phone. “Is this the way to Twin Lakes Road?” “No. You need … Continue reading

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Here

Sometimes being herefeels like I’m in the wrong placeas if I could look at a map and backtrackto where I’m supposed to be.But there’s no map for the contemplative journey,let alone my contemplative journey. “Here,” the wise ones say,“is the … Continue reading

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The Infinite Love that Loves Us So Unexplainably

For the past three months, James Finley has been my spiritual guide. As soon as I wake up in the morning, I walk in a nearby park and listen to a podcast from Turning to the Mystics. Then I sit … Continue reading

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Borderline

On a run, I wondered what I would share for my check-in that afternoon at the peer supervision group I attend with other spiritual directors. Typically when we check in, we don’t just share what’s at the surface of our … Continue reading

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It’s Time to Sing the Mourning Songs

Take a moment and listen to the experience of Emma Baker, a 84-year-old survivor of the Kamloops residential school. I knew about the residential schools and how bad things were, but this hits harder than any of the presentations, courses, … Continue reading

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What You Didn’t Know When You Woke Up That Day

Last week, I was in a classroom in Austin, Texas, where a girl who was apparently going through a really rough spell at home wrote a poem that was definitely tragic and comic both, about—everybody was yelling at her in … Continue reading

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Love Your Body Now

Let me share my earworm. It’s a riff of a Backstreet Boy’s song Everybody (yeah, yeah)Love your body (yeah, yeah)Love your body now. Adam Sud should have died. Seriously addicted to amphetamines and fast foods, his body and soul were … Continue reading

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