Category Archives: Childhood

Feeling Trapped

Posted on October 2, 2026 by Esther Hizsa

I began to notice it more and more in conversations, in a turn of events, a sudden increase in price, a response I didn’t like. I kept thinking they were doing something to me. “They” could be anyone, anything that … Continue reading →

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Finding Us

Posted on May 17, 2026 by Esther Hizsa

What did I hear in that note that stunned me and sent me into the sock drawer, consumed with anger and hate?   I heard: You are not enough, just as I had begun to skip along trusting that I was.  As I walked with … Continue reading →

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What Was

Posted on February 14, 2026 by Esther Hizsa

After Mom passed, sadness drifted in and out of my days like a hum in the distance, clearer whenever I looked its way.  It didn’t come from the one who had mothered my mother, nor the one who kept wishing for more. It came … Continue reading →

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Come In

Posted on January 31, 2026 by Esther Hizsa

It was comical, really.The day before my mother died,there was a clatter.Clear as a bell, my mom, who hadn’t eaten or spoken for days, called out,“Come in!”“I just dropped something on the floor, ” I said.“Come in!” she said againand went … Continue reading →

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Waiting

Posted on November 28, 2025 by Esther Hizsa

What if the one you are waiting for never comes? It was only choir practice at the little United Church a mile away. My friend Edith and I were thirteen years old and proud to be the youngest members. Every … Continue reading →

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A Walk with Rod Part 2

Posted on November 8, 2025 by Esther Hizsa

Hey friends, Remember when I wrote about my mom loving me the way I wanted to be loved the day after I went for a walk with a friend and talked about accepting that she loves me the way she … Continue reading →

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This Summer

Posted on August 23, 2025 by Esther Hizsa

This summer, we aren’t camping and hiking in the mountains. We’ve booked a moving truck, signed endless documents, and will spend our vacation packing, loading and disposing of furniture.  Then, of course, there’s the unloading and unpacking.  This summer hasn’t offered us spacious days without … Continue reading →

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Bumper Crop

Posted on August 1, 2025 by Esther Hizsa

Jesus told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. Some fell on rocky places, … Continue reading →

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Disappointed

Posted on July 7, 2025 by Esther Hizsa

When old fears emerge,something in me is disappointed and wishes I’d get over it and move on. She (this part of me) has the wisdom of Jesus, knows the truth that will set me free, but lacks his compassionand patience. He finds … Continue reading →

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Revelation

Posted on February 28, 2025 by Esther Hizsa

By the miracle of medicine and grace, my mother woke from the malaise of dementia. For two days, her quick mind was back. She laughed and shared stories. She hugged me and thanked me for taking care of her. As I … Continue reading →

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