What did I hear in that note 
that stunned me and sent me
into the sock drawer, 
consumed with anger and hate? 

I heard: You are not enough, 
just as I had begun to skip along 
trusting that I was. 

As I walked with myself, 
I could separate the other’s disappointment from mine. 
I could name what was missing and discern
what I could change and what I wanted to. 
I could deepen my understanding
of what it means to be enough. 

But You didn’t explain anything. 

You lifted the little girl me 
onto your lap 
and read her a story, 
playing the game
of finding us 
on every page. 

Of one thing I am certain:
my soul has become calm, quiet, and contented in You.
Like a weaned child resting upon his mother, I am quiet.
My soul is like this weaned child.
–Psalm 131:2 (Voice)

Credits and References:
Raggylug Illustration by Doris Pailthorpe for Ernest Thompson Seton’s ‘Raggylug, the Story of a Cottontail Rabbit’ from The Westminster Readers (First Series, Book Four): Realms of Adventure (1933). Photo by Ban Galbasi. Used with permission.
Finding Us by Esther Hizsa, 2026
Mother reading to Child by Jessie Willcox Smith – ABC’s 1921 Good Housekeeping cover 10-1921 by Plum leaves. Used with permission.

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