Category Archives: Reflections

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Posted on June 2, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

More.I want more time,more done in my day,more kilometres walked and biked,more dessert,another movie that I enjoyed as much as the last one,more kudos, wins, meaningful prayer times,as if more of anything would make me happier. Then I spend six days … Continue reading →

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Always

Posted on May 26, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

The disciples were scared spitlesswhen You sent them off two by two to preach and perform miracleswithout You.But they did it and came back full of joy with stories as long as Your arm. Then when You were arrested, beaten and … Continue reading →

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Just Sit There and Let Me Love You

Posted on May 19, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

When my eyelid started twitching, I knew my body was stressed. “You can slow down,” I heard God say to me in a spiritual direction session. That week, with the same tender concern Pastor Ruth said, “You don’t have to … Continue reading →

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A Little Resurrection

Posted on May 12, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

I was all packed and ready to go. But not quite. I needed to go over a couple of sessions I would lead during the Living from the Heart course one more time. Now I had a spacious hour that … Continue reading →

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Notice Me

Posted on May 5, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

As soon as the participants started arriving at the retreat centreI noticed something in meelbowed to the front and shoved my self aside. She wanted a hug from everyone and pouted when she didn’t get it.At the dinner table,she told … Continue reading →

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The Unholy Three

Posted on April 28, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

Fear is a powerful ally.It curbs my behaviour, motivates me, and keeps me safe.Would I be as nice if I didn’t fear judgment?Would I prepare and work so hard if I didn’t fear failure?Would I watch what I eat and … Continue reading →

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My Suffering

Posted on April 21, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

Sadness crept closer with each chapter I read. Then it slipped in beside me when the father left too. It was still there the next day and the day after that. Sadness kept coming in through the tiny crack of … Continue reading →

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Known

Posted on April 14, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

I am made of the earthand of its Creatorflesh and spirithuman, divineimpermanent and eternal. I will dieand before I dieI will have died and risen againhundreds of times. On the Saturdaybetween Good Fridayand Easter Sunday,I lay awake in the tomband … Continue reading →

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Just as You Promised

Posted on April 8, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

I fell asleep beside you in the tomband when I woke up you were gone and not gone. I looked up, and there you were looking down at meand smiling. “Good morning, my Beloved,”you said as if it wasn’t the most famous morningin … Continue reading →

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May We Love You

Posted on April 2, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

And, now, it is our turnto remind you of your belovedness, Dear One. This week, when you need to hear it most,may we greet you on the road, palms waving.May we wash your beautiful feet,savour our last meal,and feel the sting … Continue reading →

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