Surfin’ USA

Here’s a story I wrote a few years ago that was published in the MB Herald. It’s also in my book, Stories of an Everyday Pilgrim, which will be available this fall.

Oswald West by Paul HamiltonFred and I sat contented on the beach and listened to the surf. We gazed at the ships on the horizon and watched kids and dogs—and surfers riding the waves.

“Doesn’t that make you want to get a board and go surfing?” he asked.

Neither of us had surfed before. When we were first married over thirty years ago, we used to scuba dive, so I know how much work it is to get into and out of a wetsuit. Then I considered the energy it would take to paddle through the surf, energy I wanted to save for cycling.

We had come to Oregon to cycle 250 miles of the coast with my siblings. A month before our vacation, both of us caught colds that dragged on for weeks and put us behind in our training. I was concerned that we might not have the stamina for it. Fred still had the occasional cough.

All this whooshed through my mind in less than ten seconds before I spit out a solitary “No” to his question. Fred said no more about it.

A few days later, we were on the beach again. We leaned against driftwood, and watched the surfers. Fred said, “You know, you can rent a wetsuit and surfboard for twenty-four hours for only forty dollars.” Then it hit me. Whenever Fred asks me if I’d like to do something, like he did a few days earlier, he really means he’d like to do it.

We checked out the surf shop in Manzanita with the advertised deal. They had plenty of boards and a suit in his size. On our bike ride back to the campground, I made one final appeal. “At least talk to somebody who knows what they’re doing and find out what you’re in for.” Once again Fred was silent.

The next day was sunny and hot. I biked to Oswald West State Park while Fred drove to the surf shop. We agreed to meet at the parking lot that led to Falcon Beach, a Mecca for surfers.

Half way up a long hill, when my calves were begging me to get off and walk, our black Mazda passed by with a surfboard lashed to the roof. Fred waved through the open sunroof window.

From the parking lot, we carried the surfboard down the kilometre long trail to the beach. “It’s heavier than I thought it would be,” he said, and we put it down periodically to catch our breath.

Surfer Fred croppedOn the beach I huddled in the shade while Fred put on the wet suit, complete with mitts and a hood. He posed for some photos; then off he went. But he was back again ten minutes later. “The current’s taking me too far south,” he said. “I’m going farther up the beach.”

I watched him paddle out, duck the waves, and paddle some more. At one point I lost track of him. When I caught sight of him again, he was standing up. I threw my arms in the air and as soon as I let out a “Woo-hoo!” I realized it wasn’t Fred at all but another man with the same color surfboard.

Precisely one hour after he started, Fred announced, “I’m done,” and plopped down on the sand.

The next morning at breakfast, Fred said, “I still can’t believe I went surfing.”

I wondered if lying on and falling off a surfboard a number of times qualified as surfing, but I kept that thought to myself. “I’m just glad you didn’t injure yourself,” I said.

“Oh, I forgot to tell you. Some guy saw the surfboard on our car and asked me how the surfing was. I told him I didn’t know. It was the first time I ever tried it. ‘Oh, then,’ the man says. ‘The correct answer is: It was the best day surfing I ever had in my life.’”

And I could see by the smile on Fred’s face that it was.

the loving couple and Harry

This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
— Psalm 118:24 (NRSV)

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Love by Dustin Gaffke

 Love Mischief for the World

Fred and our grandson watched “The Story of Stuff” together.

What love mischief are you and God doing to care for the earth?
Let me know and I will include it in an upcoming post.

One more thing: I will be speaking at a women’s retreat in Nanaimo, B.C.
September 11-13. Details on “Events” page.

Credits and references:
“Oswald West” photos by Paul Hamilton. Used with permission.
“Surfer Fred” by Esther Hizsa.
Photo of Fred and me (and my goofy brother Harry) on our Oregon bike trip by Ron Frehner. Used with permission.
“Love” by Dustin Gaffke. Used with permission.
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Responding to the World Contemplatively

Crescent earth from Apollo 4How is God calling me to respond to our beautiful, broken world? The same way I am asked to do everything else: contemplatively.

“Contemplatively” simply means living out of the reality that we are always in union with God. The apostle Paul said, “In Christ we live and move and have our being.” So, we are not alone in any venture, including this one.

With this in mind, SoulStream (the contemplative Christian community I belong to) expanded our value of justice to include the following:

God being our helper, we will endeavour to

  1. approach our divine call to care for the world positively and lightly, knowing that our response will be a natural outflow of our life in God.
  2. become more aware of our own complicity and our own inner landscape in terms of attraction and aversion around responding to the world’s beauty and brokenness.
  3. support one another in our community, as we continue to converse about our anguish and helplessness around what we see and allow God to move us into hope.
  4. join God in healing the world in ways that are true to our own gifts and limitations.

Night Prayer by Michael CookA few of us had been working on this initiative for months. When we finally got these four statements down on paper and shared them with our community at our annual gathering in June, it helped us all move forward.

Inspired by Michael Cook’s Night Prayer (above) and the Hafiz poem Seed Cracked Open, we have been praying, “God, what love-mischief can ‘We’ do for the world today?”

This is what God, Fred and I have been up to while on vacation in Banff National Park.

  • Petted a dog and looked into her eyes
  • Listened to the sounds of creatures stirring in the morning
  • Instead of disposing of our paper, plastic, metal and glass in the campground garbage bins, we held onto them until we found recycling bins in town
  • Were saddened by the exhaust of a 4 kilometer long train of vehicles inching down from Lake Louise to the highway and have composed a letter about it to Parks Canada (along with suggesting they include recycling info in their Mountain Guide)
  • Spoke up for the earth when people were going off-trail and damaging the fragile plants
  • Encouraged someone who wants to start composting
  • Applauded my nieces who are doing a month-long simplifying challenge. Each day they will get rid one more thing (i.e. first day one, second day two, etc)
  • Tried to eat more slowly and bless those who grew the food
  • Prayed outside with my eyes open
  • Gave thanks for life around me (although it wasn’t easy when it was perpetually cold and we had even more rain and hail!)

What love mischief have you and God been doing for the world? Let me know. I’d love to include what you’ve been up to in my upcoming posts. Don’t worry if doesn’t seem like much. Wendell Berry says,

“The real work of planet saving will be small, humble, and humbling, and (insofar as it involves love) pleasing and rewarding. Its jobs will be too many to count, too many to report, too many to be publicly noticed or rewarded, too small to make anyone rich or famous.”

Credits and references:
“Crescent Earth from Apollo 4” by Jason Major. Used with permission.
Acts 17:28
Night Prayer by Michael Cook. Used with permission.
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Helping God Save the Earth

Despite all evidence to the contrary,
God will accomplish God’s purposes in Christ.

This bold statement, based on Ephesians 1:10 and Colossians 1:19-20, expresses SoulStream community’s core value of hope. My experience in the Valley of Dry Bones echoed this hope. Despite evidence to the contrary, God is renewing the earth.

“Well,” the Spirit of the Lord said to me, “shall we move forward?”

Yes, indeed. I liked the sound of “we.” It reminded me of the last line of the Hafiz poem Seed Cracked Open: “God, what love mischief can ‘We’ do for the world today?”

So I paid particular attention to what God was doing and looked for how I was being invited to join God in some “love mischief.”

Indian Paint BrushWe were camping in Banff National Park in Alberta. The day after we arrived, Fred and I hiked along Mosquito Creek toward Molar Pass. We were awestruck at every turn. Indian Paintbrush in shades of coral, ruby and magenta, snow-covered peaks, and rushing glacial streams reflected God’s beautiful handiwork.

Meanwhile the tedious, temperamental weather inspired a new version of the Hokey Pokey. It goes like this:

You take your rain gear off,
you put your rain gear on,
you take your rain gear off,
and then you shake it all about.
You give thanks for the sunshine
and you give thanks for the rain.*
That’s what it’s all about.

*Verse 2 insert “snow”; Verse 3 insert “hail”.

If it were up to me, I would choose warm weather with endless sunshine every time. But our land was in dire need of rain. Forest fires were burning all over British Columbia and into Alberta two hundred kilometers from where we camped. So I was thankful for precipitation in any form it came.

Giving thanks for all God’s gifts, including the rain, seems insignificant in the scheme of things (especially when I have a husband who knows how to put up tarps). But according to Pope Francis, it’s an essential part of my conversion if I’m going to help God save the earth.

So what [some Christians] need is an ‘ecological conversion,’ whereby the effects of their encounter with Jesus Christ become evident in their relationship with the world around them. Living our vocation to be protectors of God’s handiwork is essential to a life of virtue; it is not an optional or a secondary aspect of our Christian experience. . .

This conversion calls for a number of attitudes which together foster a spirit of generous care, full of tenderness. First, it entails gratitude and gratuitousness, a recognition that the world is God’s loving gift, and that we are called quietly to imitate God’s generosity in self-sacrifice and good works . . .

— Encyclical Letter, Laudato Si’ of the Holy Father Francis on Care for Our Common Home, May 2015 (#217,220)

Camping Mosquito creek w Fred 2015

Credits and references
“Indian Paintbrush” by Bureau of Land Management Oregon and Washington. Used with permission.
“Camping in Mosquito Creek Campground, Banff” by Fred Hizsa. Used with permission.
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Bone of My Bone, Flesh of My Flesh

23 John Roddam Spencer Stanhope - The vision of Ezekiel - Valley of the Dry Bones

I close my eyes to pray, and the hand of the Lord is on me. Like Ezekiel, I am brought out by the Spirit of the Lord and set in the middle of a valley full of bones. Everywhere I look, I see sun-bleached skeletons of fathers, mothers, and children whose lives were cut short, whose bones are so scattered that they cannot even be given a decent burial.

Sadness washes over me, but I am not overwhelmed by it: these are not my people. My loved ones are eating cereal and checking e-mails.

The Spirit reminds me of a line in a prayer I have been praying, “Triune Lord. . . give us the grace to feel profoundly joined to everything that is.”

I look at the carnage again. Some died from drinking water drawn from poisoned rivers. Others starved to death when their land was repurposed by their oppressors.

The Spirit leads me back and forth among the bones, and I see a great many more on the floor of the valley–bones of birds, animals and sea creatures, now extinct.

The Spirit asks me, “Daughter of Eve, can these bones live?”

“These bones are dried up! Their hope is gone. Like Cain, they are cut off from you and each other. Yet, Lord, you are sovereign; you alone know.”

The Spirit of the Lord says to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; then you will know that I am the Lord.’”

While I am prophesying, I hear a noise, a rattling sound. The bones come together, bone to bone! Tendons and flesh appear on them, and skin covers them. Breath comes from the four winds and breathes into each one. They stand up on their feet—a vast army of all God’s creatures.

Then the Spirit of the Lord says to me: “Daughter of Eve, this is your family–bone of your bone, and flesh of your flesh.”

My mouth is dry. All my bones are out of joint. Humbly and desperately, I cry, “Sovereign Lord, you have seized me and rattled me. Thank you for reconnecting me to my family. Send breath from the four winds and revive us. Help me protect our common home and love each creature justly, kindly and generously.”

Black-footed Ferret USFWS Mountain Prairie

Father, we praise you with all your creatures.
They came forth from your all-powerful hand;
they are yours, filled with your presence and your tender love.
Praise be to you!

Son of God, Jesus,
through you all things were made.
You were formed in the womb of Mary our Mother,
you became part of this earth,
and you gazed upon this world with human eyes.
Today you are alive in every creature in your risen glory.
Praise be to you!

Holy Spirit, by your light
you guide this world towards the Father’s love
and accompany creation as it groans in travail.
You also dwell in our hearts
and you inspire us to do what is good.
Praise be to you!

Triune Lord,
wondrous community of infinite love,
teach us to contemplate you
in the beauty of the universe,
for all things speak of you.
Awaken our praise and thankfulness
for every being that you have made.
Give us the grace to feel profoundly joined
to everything that is.

God of love, show us our place in this world
as channels of your love
for all the creatures of this earth,
for not one of them is forgotten in your sight.
Enlighten those who possess power and money
that they may avoid the sin of indifference,
that they may love the common good,
advance the weak,
and care for this world in which we live.
The poor and the earth are crying out.
O Lord, seize us with your power and light,
help us to protect all life,
to prepare for a better future,
for the coming of your Kingdom
of justice, peace, love and beauty.
Praise be to you!
Amen.

–   A Christian Prayer in Union with Creation, from Encyclical Letter, Laudato Si’ of the Holy Father Francis on Care for Our Common Home, May 2015

Credits and references:
“23 John Roddam Spencer Stanhope (1829-1908)- The vision of Ezekiel – Valley of the Dry Bones” by Will. Used with permission.
Text taken largely word for word from Ezekiel 37:1-14 (NIV) except for “bone of my bone. . .” from Genesis 2:23; and “My mouth is dry. All my bones are out of joint.” from Psalm 22:14,15.
“Blackfooted Ferret” by USFWS Mountain-Prairie. Used with permission.
Special thanks to Tim Fretheim, who shared his sermon prep on Ezekiel 37 while on a bike ride with Fred and me, and to Marcia Fretheim who led our last silent retreat on this passage.
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim, 2015.
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I Am My Sister’s Keeper

Detail of the dead Abel on a Romanesque capital from the choir, now displayed in the chapter house. It depicts a moment in the biblical story of Cain, who killed his brother Abel out of jealousy. Here God asks Cain where his brother is and he replies, "Am I my brother's keeper?" Cain puts his hand on his hip in a gesture of defiance. Behind him, the feet of Abel's body can be seen sticking out of the bushes, revealing the true answer to God's question. Around the corner on the side of the capital is the rest of Abel, lying among plants with his eyes closed.

“Where is your brother Abel?” The Lord asked Cain.

Cain, the first child born on earth, had killed Abel.

I can imagine God’s anguish. “What have you done? Listen! Your brother’s blood cries out to me from the ground.”

“In the story of Cain and Abel, we see how envy led Cain to commit the ultimate injustice against his brother, which in turn ruptured the relationship between Cain and God, and between Cain and the earth,” Pope Francis wrote in his encyclical on Care for Our Common Home.

As I look at how we have abused our common home, I feel God’s anguish and am asked the same question, “What have you done?”

Centuries ago, Francis of Assisi called the earth Our Sister. “This sister now cries out to us,” Pope Francis writes, “because of the harm we have inflicted on her by our irresponsible use and abuse of the goods with which God has endowed her. We have come to see ourselves as her lords and masters, entitled to plunder her at will.”

Our complicity in this is big and too painful to conceive. I am my sister’s keeper.

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You’re still reading this post? You’re brave! Many would have quit at the first niggling of guilt and remorse. We don’t want to face what we’ve done to our sister Earth. I know I don’t.

Will I, like Cain, turn away from God and deny my guilt? Or will I allow remorse to turn me to God? And could I, as Pope Francis suggests, “turn what is happening to the world into my own personal suffering and thus discover what I can do about it”?

Imagine what would have happened if Cain had allowed remorse to do its work? He would have flung himself into God’s arms, like a child, and wept.

And God would have held Cain and comforted him. God would have understood why he did it, without minimizing the injustice. And then, once Cain knew he was loved and forgiven, they would have talked about a way forward.

I like the thought of moving forward, so I kept reading the encyclical with one thought in mind: Tell me what to do.

But God wasn’t in a hurry to give me a to-do list. Receiving forgiveness cannot be rushed, and premature action interrupts the process.

God wants me to do something. No question about it. But I need to do it for my sister, not to save myself from feeling bad.

Lord, have mercy.
Christ, have mercy.
Lord, have mercy on us.

Wheat FarbenfroheWunderwelt

Credits and references:
Photo of sculpture of Cain, Cathédrale St-Lazare, Burgundy, France by Holly Hayes. Used with permission.
“Earth in the Hands” by Arthur Rowan. Used with permission.
Genesis 4:1-10
Quotes from Encyclical Letter, Laudato Si’ of the Holy Father Francis on Care for Our Common Home #70, #2, #19.
“Wheat” by FarbenfroheWunderwelt. Used with permission
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DIY Prayer Retreat #3: Meeting Jesus in Scripture and in Daily Life

Nearly every month I gather with friends for a silent retreat. It has been a rich experience. I explained how it works here and introduced Ignatian prayer  here.

Joy Richardson, a spiritual director living in Coquitlam, prepared and led this retreat.

An Ignatian Prayer Retreat:
Meeting Jesus in Scripture and in Daily Life

10:00 am Begin by asking a participant to light the Christ Candle and open in prayer.

Read aloud: Questioned by a Straw Flower by Esther Hizsa

Go over the following and then invite people to enter into silence and return for sharing and prayer at 3 pm.

Part I: Contemplation of Scripture (First prayer period)

Jesus Heals Peter's Mother-in-law by Rembrandt

Allow 1 hour and 15 minutes for each prayer period with a 90 minute break in between.

  1. Opening Prayer: (can be any  you choose e.g. SoulStream Morning Prayer)
  2. Preparation: Choose a scripture passage and read it.
    • Luke 13:10-13 Healing of the crippled woman.
    • Mark 1:9-11 The Baptism of Jesus
    • Any Scripture the Lord draws you to
  • Visualize the scene: smells, sounds, temperature, surroundings, characters, clothes, tastes, things you touch, etc.
  • Ask God for your Heart’s Desire (What you specifically need at this point.) e.g. Ask for a deeply felt awareness of God’s love for you.
  1. The Prayer of Imagination (main section-45 min.):
  • Be in the scene. Slow down. Wait. There is lots of time.
  • See the characters. Who are you?
  • Listen to what they are saying. How does this impact you?
  • What are they doing? What is your reaction?
  • What are they feeling? What are you feeling?
  • What would you say and/or do in that scene?
  • What would you say to Jesus? What does Jesus say to you?
  • What does Jesus do? What do you do?  Just be with Jesus.

Savour and relish your time with Jesus. Be sure to get “up close and personal” with Jesus. Look in His eyes. Allow Him to look into yours. The point of the spiritual life is to know Jesus, not know about Him, but to know Him.

  1. Talk it Over With Jesus (10 min.): Talk your prayer over with Jesus. Tell Him what happened in your prayer.
  2. Closing Prayer
  3. Written Prayer Review (15 min.): Move to a different spot. Write down what happened that was particularly significant to you. Include how you felt. This helps you notice what God is doing in your experience with Him. Being in this prayer in three different ways (imagination, talking it over, review), allows your experience of Jesus to deepen. That is extremely important.

After  your first prayer period, take a break for lunch and walk or rest. Ideally there should be 90 minutes between prayer periods.

 

Part II. Contemplation: Finding God in Our Own Lives (second prayer period)

Album Page 94 by Chris KilkesThe Old Testament is a love story between God and Israel. The Gospels are a love story between God and the apostles. My story is the love story between God and me. It is where my inner life becomes the source of my matter for prayer.

  1. Opening Prayer
  2. Preparation: Jesus is with us in the good times and the hard times. This prayer helps us to experience Jesus in a specific moment in our lives. Choose a moment or experience that you are going to bring to the Lord before you start your prayer. Today let’s choose a time you sensed God’s love.  It might be one of our own personal encounters with God, a special moment of grace, a simple spiritual moment, a life-defining moment or just a special moment.
  • Visualize the scene in detail.
  • Ask God for your Heart’s Desire. (What you specifically need at this point.) e.g. Ask for a deeply felt awareness of God’s love for you.
  1. The Prayer of Imagination (45 min.):
  • Relive the moment/experience. Don’t just remember it or observe it.
  • Enter the scene. See each of the people. Where are you?
  • Look around slowly. What do you see and hear and smell? What are you wearing?
  • Where is Jesus? What is He doing? What is He saying? What is He saying to you?
  • What are you doing? What are you saying?
  • What are you saying to Jesus? What does He say to you in reply?
  • Just “be” with Jesus.
  • Feel how you felt in the experience.
  • Feel: imagine God feeling what you were feeling then.
  • Feel what is in God’s heart for you, God’s love for you. Let it transform you. This is not a time to get a message from God and then do it. What changes us is quality time with Jesus, soaking up His presence.
  • Savour and relish your time with Jesus.

(If sometime you choose a difficult experience, then imagine what God was feeling as God was feeling your pain.)

  1. Talk it Over With Jesus (10 min.): Talk your prayer over with Jesus. Tell Him what happened in your prayer.
  1. Closing Prayer
  2. Written Prayer Review (15 min.): Move to a different spot. Write down what happened and what you felt.

3:00 pm Gather together and take turns sharing what was significant in your times of prayer. After each person has shared, hold them up to God in silence. Remember not to comment on what others have shared. No advice giving or fixing. Keep what has been shared in confidence.

4:00 pm Offer a prayer of thanksgiving for the day.

 

Credits:
“Jesus heals Peter’s mother-in-law” by Rembrandt, 1660.
“Album Page 94” by Chris Kilkes. Used with permission.

 

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God Is So Beautiful

Peace in a leaf by Tenacity8fear“Ever since I was twelve years old, I have been deeply moved by beauty,” a friend wrote in response to a recent post. “When I take my morning coffee out onto the back deck, I am surrounded by so many shades of green from the vine maples, Douglas fir, hemlock, Oregon grape, aspen and other indigenous plants that grow in our back yard. As the morning light filters through their leaves, I am moved by this beauty that is part of my everyday life. My heart swells just being among the trees.”

Mine swells too as I picture my friend there and remember what John O’Donohue said in Beauty: The Invisible Embrace: “The human soul is hungry for beauty.”

When I finished working at New Life Church last year, Fred and I went to the Oregon coast for few days. All I wanted to do was walk by the ocean, smell the air, and listen to the waves caress the shore.

“I haven’t prayed much since we’ve been here,” I confessed to Fred as we walked.

“This is prayer,” he told me and the waves said “Amen.”

Beauty filled my hungry soul. I was seeing, smelling, tasting, hearing and touching God.

We know in our heads that we are always in God’s presence, and this knowledge eventually works its way down to our hearts where we (sort of) believe it. But, when we encounter beauty, our hearts instantly recognize God.  “In the experience of beauty, we awaken and surrender in the same act,” said O’Donohue.

In Psalm 27, David wrote,

One thing I ask from the Lord,
    this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
    all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
    and to seek him in his temple.

What was David looking at when he gazed on the beauty of the Lord? The temple in Jerusalem hadn’t been built yet. Was he looking at the temple of the earth which is full of God’s glory?

Beauty is God’s glory. It’s all around us–in the sound of laughter, the smell of rain, the taste of a strawberry, a cool summer breeze, and the face of everyone we see.

God is so beautiful.

Strawberry #2 Craig Allen

Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty;
    the whole earth is full of your glory.
— Isaiah 6:3

Credits:
Banner (not the one on home page): “Face Rock  Mist” by Andy Smith. Used with permission.
“Peace in a leaf” by Tenacity8fear. Used with permission.
“Strawberry #2” by Craig Allen. Used with permission.
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Hidden Beauty

Photo by Anne Yungwirth“You have a beautiful smile,” someone said.

“I love your laugh,” I heard another say a few days later.

“You exude beauty!” a friend told me, looking right into my eyes.

I could hardly take it in. They were talking about me and my beauty. Do they see what God sees? I imagined God watching these interactions with the same delight a parent feels when their child finds the Easter basket they have hidden.

God loves to hide things for us to discover.  “The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field,” Jesus said. “When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.” Mathematician Bernhard Riemann once said, “I did not invent those pairs of differential equations. I found them in the world where God had hidden them.”

What am I hearing? God has made many things–rivers, flowers, people–with obvious beauty that stuns us into silence. But God also tucks beauty away for us to discover in places we would never think to look–a hospital room, a crowded bus, our own reflection.

No one has ever stopped me on the street and said, “Gee, you’re beautiful.” My face will never be on the cover of a fashion magazine, nor will it launch a thousand ships. But, I’m discovering, that doesn’t mean I’m not beautiful.

God has hidden beauty in all of us. I enjoy discovering it in others, and I’m starting to believe they enjoy finding beauty in me.

fawn in the trees by Ed Dahl

From now on I will tell you of new things,
    of hidden things unknown to you.
–Isaiah 48:6 (NIV)

Credits and references:
Banner image: “Who Am I?” by Megan Yungwirth. Used with permission.
Hermit Crab by Anne Yungwirth. Used with permission.
Fawn in the Undergrowth by Ed Dahl. Used with permission. Matthew 13:44 (NIV).
Kathleen Norris quoted Bernhard Riemann at a writing workshop June 13, 2015 at Vancouver School of Theology.
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Beauty Stares Me in the Face

Be beautiful by ben grey

Every time I look in the mirror, I’m reminded that I don’t look very beautiful.

Ouch. Did I say that out loud?

Beauty is a sore subject with me, yet over the past few years, God has awakened me to its glory. When I experience something beautiful–standing at the ocean or watching my grandchildren play–I am transformed. Writers, like John O’Donohue, have helped me understand that beauty enables us to experience God with our senses.

For the past six months,  Doug Schroeder, the director of SoulStream community, and Jeff Imbach, one of the founding partners, and I have been working on a new SoulStream initiative: A Contemplative Response to the World. In our conversations, which take place by Skype, we realized that God is inviting our community to respond, not just to the pain and brokenness in the world, but to its beauty as well.

I enjoyed the work we were doing and looked forward to seeing Doug and Jeff’s faces pop up on my computer screen, but I didn’t like seeing mine.

No wonder I had trouble valuing beauty! From a young age, I haven’t been able to wrap my mind around a God who delights in beauty yet didn’t create me with this gift. I clung to statements like “Beauty is only skin deep” and verses like 1 Samuel 16:7, “People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” But these consoling messages
only confirmed the fact that I’m not that attractive.

Now that I knew why I was afraid to love beauty, a new way of coming to terms with it seemed possible. I felt hopeful enough to e-mail Doug and Jeff and let them know I had an “aha” moment.

The next time we skyped, Doug asked me to tell them about it. I wished I hadn’t said anything. How would I explain it to them without feeling embarrassed?

But I did. And as I did, Doug wiped tears from his eyes.

They both confessed that they didn’t like seeing their faces on the screen either.

“But, when I look at you, I see brothers that I love so much,” I said.

“That’s how we see you too!” Doug replied.

“Can you believe, when we look at you, we see someone we love?” Jeff asked.

I nodded.

If anyone had walked in on our “I love you, man!” conversation, they might have thought it was the sappiest moment in SoulStream history. But that moment helped me picture God creating me and being immensely pleased with my beauty.

Daisies by Peter Miller

  God saw all that he had made, and it was very good.
— Genesis 1:31 (NIV)

Credits and references:
“Be Beautiful” by Ben Grey. Used with permission.
“Daisies” by Peter Miller. Used with permission.
Beauty: The Invisible Embrace by John O’Donohue
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Questioned by a Strawflower

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Five tight buds, glossy purple lollipops, greeted me as I passed them on my way to morning prayers. Many flowers that I recognized were blooming at Twin Creeks Lodge–iris, geraniums, petunias, pansies, and daisies–but I had never seen buds like these before. By mid-morning, one had opened up to the sun. “It’s a strawflower,” someone told me.

Next morning, there were five buds again. Had I been seeing things? Where was the flower? Before noon the blossom reappeared: it closed at night and opened in the day!

Every time I passed the strawflowers during the Living from the Heart intensive, I looked to see what they were doing. And they, in turn, looked at me and asked, “Are you open or closed?”

I’m one of the facilitators of SoulStream‘s spiritual formation course. In the week-long intensive, Deb Arndt, Jeff Imbach and I introduced ancient prayer practices and explained contemplative living to the participants. We had the privilege of watching them open up to God and to one another. Our job was to help them recognize the Real Teacher in their lives.

It sounds easier than it is. At times, I was as tight as a bud, anxious that I might say or do something that would inhibit God’s work in a participant’s life. The strawflower invited me to relax and open myself to the sun. So did morning and evening prayers, the lighting of the Christ candle, the gathering of this little community as we ate, shared and laughed together. Even the rhythm of my breath–full, then empty, then full again–encouraged me to trust that God was at work in me too.

By the end of our time together, spring had ended and summer arrived. The strawflower no longer needed to retreat at night. I long for the day when I will remain open to God and bask in Love’s warmth. But for now, I sense, it’s enough to listen to the flowers.

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“Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.
I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you.
Keep company with me
and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”

— Matthew 11:29-30 (MSG)

Credits:
“Strawflower buds at Twin Creeks” by Fred Hizsa. Used with permission.
“Bracteantha Magenta” by Fleming’s Nurseries. Used with permission.
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim, 2015.
Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without permission from Esther Hizsa is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used provided there is a link to the original content and credit is given as follows: © Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim 2013, 2014, 2015.  http://www.estherhizsa.wordpress.com
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