Anointed

“Wow, what a powerful quote! It would be awesome if the world could live like this,” said a friend after reading this quote from last week’s blog post.

You stand with the least likely to succeed until success is succeeded by something more valuable: kinship. You stand with the belligerent, the surly, and the badly behaved until bad behaviour is recognized for the language it is: the vocabulary of the deeply wounded and of those whose burdens are more than they can bear. —Gregory Boyle, SJ.

My friend and I talked about the quote and how it reminded us of the people we share a meal with at the Wednesday Lunch Club. Later on in our conversation, I mentioned a drifter who was back in town. “I saw him in a grocery store and tried to get out of there as quickly as I could,”  I said and went on to explain my actions. I met this fellow when I was working as a pastor. He drained the staff of time and energy. We tried to listen to him and love him, but it was never enough. I was relieved when he moved on.

I remembered what I had said about the drifter when I opened my heart to pray the next morning. As I replayed the conversation in my mind, I humbly realized I had defended my right not to stand with this belligerent man.

God was grateful for my noticing and led me to this Syrian icon of the Pentecost.

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Peter is standing with strangers from many nations. They are all saints, not because they are a cut above the rest, but because the Spirit rests upon them, regardless of who they are or what they’ve done.

God was inviting me to see this drifter with a halo around his head and anointed with tongues of fire, even if he isn’t living into this reality. I don’t have to save him. I don’t have to engage him in conversation (although sometimes I may want to). But I do need to love him. Because whoever loves God loves all that God loves.

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The Sandalwood Tree

The sandalwood tree shares its lovely scent
with any who come near.
God is like that.

Does the tree ever think to itself,

I am not going to offer my fragrance to that man
because of what he did last night,

or to that woman who neglected her child,
or because of what we might have ever done?

It is not the way of God

to hoard.

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Love Mischief for the World

Rublevtrinität_ubtThis week I am away with four other spiritual directors on my second eight-day Ignatian retreat. It is a silent retreat (except when each of us meet daily with our director). We’ll have four or five one-hour prayer periods a day and, in the hours between, I’ll rest, go for walks or bike rides or relax with a puzzle or handcraft. I can imagine much love mischief happening as we are hosted by the Trinity.

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Credits and References:
Tattoos on the Heart: The Power of Boundless Compassion by Gregory Boyle, SJ,
Pentecost from the Rabbula Gospels and the artist/scribe is Meister des Rabula-Evangeliums. The Rabbula Gospel images come from an illuminated gospel text created in 586 at a monastery in Syria.  The images are in the public domain.
“Whoever loves God loves all that God loves” is from a song by Steve Bell on Pilgrimage and is based on 1 John 4:21.
White or East Indian Sandalwood or Chandan Santalum album in Hyderabad , India. by  J.M.Garg. Wikimedia/Creative commons.
Excerpt from “The Sandalwood Tree” is from A Year with Hafiz: Daily Contemplations by Daniel Ladinsky. Used with permission
Icon of three angels hosted by Abraham by Andrei Rublev (1360-1430) Wikimedia Creative Commons.
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Brave Thoughts

So I went as I was to the annual gathering of SoulStream, our dispersed contemplative community. In an afternoon session, Andrea, one of SoulStream’s founding partners, read this quote from Gregory Boyle‘s Tattoos on the Heart: The Power of Boundless Compassion.

You stand with the least likely to succeed until success is succeeded by something more valuable: kinship. You stand with the belligerent, the surly, and the badly behaved until bad behaviour is recognised for the language it is: the vocabulary of the deeply wounded and of those whose burdens are more than they can bear.

Father Gregory Boyle stands surrounded by former gang members who have become his friends, employees.

Father Gregory Boyle stands surrounded by former gang members who have become his friends and employees.

Andrea let that sink in. Let our imaginations picture ourselves standing with the hopeless people in our lives. Let us imagine how kinship–acceptance, love, and belonging–might succeed success. Let us feel the expansiveness of that divine thought.

Then she said, “Can you stand with yourself that way? What would it be like to offer kinship to yourself?”

I sat quietly with her question, and a thought that was never allowed to be heard took a brave step forward. What if I’m never successful at losing weight? What if I never again enjoy the body I once had? What if I’m never freed from my compulsion to overeat? Can I befriend myself and let that friendship be more dear to me than success?

Gail and meAs I held these questions, I recalled the comment my friend Gail Koombes (right) added to last week’s post. She wrote, “Remember that there is always someone, myself for one, that would love to be your winter weight.” I thought of all the overweight people reading my blog. I wondered if they were thinking: Wow, if she dislikes herself for being fat, what must she think of me?

Well, I’ll tell you. When I think of Gail my heart goes mushy. She’s feisty, fun, compassionate, loyal, and wise. When I see Gail, I see someone beautiful.

“Bella,” a SoulStream partner said to me as we embraced before parting. Bella. He called me beautiful. Another brave thought made its way forward: he sees me the way I see Gail.

As my kin stand with me, I am learning to stand with myself and embrace bella me.

The Lover, God, says to you and me,

My dove,
hiding in the caves high on the cliff,
hidden here on the mountain,
let me see you,
let me hear your voice.
Your voice is so pleasant,
and you are so beautiful!
Song of Songs 2:14 (ERV)

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Love Mischief for the World

11950161_10207032887196167_7095044902446166170_oAt our SoulStream partner gathering, Dave and Shauna Gill of Kaleden, B.C., told me about the ginger snap cookie bake-off they hosted. Shauna said, “The panel of judges was well represented with a father and son who required gluten-free, a chef, Dave, and the fifteen year-old-girl who babysits the kids, cats and chickens for many in this group of neighbours. The judges were blindfolded and subjected to slow, serious tasting with sips of water to cleanse the palate. One woman phoned ahead, needing to know many minute details about the competition. She seemed quite nervous. In the end, it was her gluten-free entry which won that category, and her smile at winning the bottle of wine went from ear to ear. A great time of kinship ensued, and there is more comfort and friendliness that passes between us all whenever we run into each other in the neighbourhood.” I had to ask, “Who won the competition?”  “Shauna won the regular snap,” Dave said proudly. “Although the gluten-free one was really good too.”

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Credits and References:
Photo of Father G. and friends by http://www.evangelicalsforsocialaction.org/.
“Thorny Beauty” by Stuart Williams. Used with permission.
Photo of Gail and me by Fred Hizsa. Used with permission.
Photo of Dave and Shauna Gill used with permission.
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Naked and Unashamed

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God’s been listening to my thoughts again–not just the chatter in my head but the deep sighs of my heart.

You know those dreams where you’re scrambling to make something happen, it’s not coming together, and time’s running out? I’ve experienced that now more than once and wished I could wake up. While on my way to speak at a retreat, I was suddenly convinced I’d chosen the wrong outfit to wear. It’s June already, and there’s no way I’ll lose the weight I gained over the winter before summer arrives. More and more I feel like I’m living another dream: the one where I’m out in public completely naked.

I don’t want people to see me as I am. I want them to see me as I’d like to be.

Meanwhile, God hears the groans I will not pray and answers with a song.

Take, o take me as I am.
Summon out what I shall be.
Set your seal upon my heart
and live in me.

That song popped into my head one morning out of nowhere. I hadn’t heard it for a long time. In it God gave me words to pray for life as it is right now–between the dreaming and the coming true. In this song, I also heard God’s prayer for me: that I would take myself as I am–including my impatience around my own self-acceptance.

A few days after the Holy Spirit sang that song to me, Fred and I had dinner with old friends. The next night we shared a meal with new friends. None of these people are blind. They see us as we are and want to be with us, because they love us as we are.

Tears come as I write this. God is listening again.

God has found me hiding in the garden. “Come out,” God says softly. “Be naked and unashamed.”

Gardem of Eden

And the man and his wife were both naked, and were not ashamed.
–Genesis 3:25

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Love Mischief for the World

soulstream imagesToday I will join many from SoulStream, a dispersed Christian contemplative community, for a weekend retreat. I look forward to chatting, eating, laughing, and praying with them. During our time together, we will be invited to deepen our “trust that despite all evidence to the contrary, God will accomplish God’s loving redemption toward the fulfilment of all things in Christ” (one of our core values) and let ” the seed crack open” in us as we explore what love-mischief we can do for the world.

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Credits and References:
“Take, O, Take Me as I Am” by John Bell
“All Life” by Ron Guest. Used with permission.
Adam and Eve depicted in a mural in Abreha wa Atsbeha Church, Ethiopia. From Wikimedia.
“Between the dreaming and the coming true” is the title of a book by Robert Benson.
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Being Loved in Distant Places

IMG_3952“Your sister really loves you,” a friend said after I told her about my trip to Gatineau, Quebec to visit my sister and her family. During that week I was touched again by Sylvia’s generosity and thoughtfulness. From buying my airplane ticket to arranging hikes and bicycle rides, to moving and cleaning a couch for our niece, she displayed God’s hands and heart.

I felt deliciously spoiled. I also felt humbled and saw where I needed to grow. Yet, I knew I couldn’t make this happen any more than I could make myself grow taller.

As I pondered this, I remembered some wise counsel by a Jesuit priest. In essence he said that if we want to become more Christlike, we need to ask God for more love. The more love we are given, the more freedom we will have to live generously and thoughtfully.

That’s what God was already doing! Over the years, God heard the child in me, like a hungry Oliver, holding up my heart like an empty bowl and saying, “Please sir, I want some more.” And God has filled it–again and again.

Receiving God’s love, given in a myriad of ways, creates a spaciousness that opens me to others. So I find that when God shows me small ways to be generous or thoughtful, I’m more able to respond. I don’t do it to get anything, because I don’t need anything. God’s love is more than enough. I’ve always known that theoretically, but God is bringing this message to the distant places in my soul that only hoped it was true.

Hold on by Luc De Leeuw

Take Lord, and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding, and my entire will, all that I have and possess. Thou hast given all to me. To Thee, O lord, I return it. All is Thine, dispose of it wholly according to Thy will. Give me Thy love and thy grace, for this is sufficient for me. —Ignatius Loyola

Love Mischief for the World

Knits for PitsJoAnna Rickard started Knits for Pits in January 2015 to help raise money for HugABull Rescue and Advocacy. She writes, “My little dog, Chia, is the inspiration behind everything I do. I want to make sure that all dog owners can find housing and feel safe travelling without fear of having their dogs taken away and euthanized just because of their breed. Heidi Braacx has helped my dream of being able to help animals without harming them with her amazing vegan yarn. I’m so grateful I’ve been able to combine my two passions of knitting and dogs!”

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Credits and references:
Photo of Sylvia (on right) and me taken by Claude Lemire. Used with permission.
“Hold On” by Luc De Leeuw. Detail of a stained glass window representing Father Damian and a leper. Used with permission.
“Knits for Pits” by JoAnna RickardUsed with permission.
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Longing for More Life

If you’ve read my posts lately, you may have noticed that God has been gently widening my view and inviting me “to see all people as my kin, all living beings as my flesh.”*

As I do this, I’ve been challenged to turn from self-interest and pay more attention to others. God is encouraging me to participate in what benefits them, even when I don’t benefit from these things directly myself. It’s hard to talk about this without feeling a certain amount of shame.

But God doesn’t share or contribute to my shame. Instead God patiently, lovingly offers support. Recently that support came in the words of Gail Purdy, a partner in SoulStream‘s dispersed community. Gail wrote,

Walking in the forest in spring renews my soul. As I notice all the signs of new life, I see many decaying leaves from last fall still clinging to the tree branches. These leaves remind me of my walks in the fall when I first noticed them getting caught in the trees as they fell. It was almost as if they made every effort to keep from falling to the ground. They seemed to be trying to hold on to what they thought was life as other leaves floated past them. As I continued to walk through the winter, I noticed how these leaves had become shrivelled and curled around the branches.

leaf 1 by Gail PurdyAs I walked today, I saw the beauty of new life everywhere. I still noticed the decaying leaves as I am always intrigued by their tenacity. They are now heavy with moisture, still clinging to the tree branches. I thought about how they have missed the opportunity for new life. I reflected on the areas in my life where I still cling and where I need to let go in order to be transformed.

I looked more closely at the leaves today and noticed a beautiful transparency and thought, Hmmm… they are still being transformed, even though they seem to be just doing nothing. So often I seem to hold on to ways of being that no longer give life. Seeing the dead leaves in the midst of the beautiful greens of spring, I become aware of my longing for more Life.

I am hopeful that even in my holding on, the Giver of Life continues to transform me. My hope, if I let go, is that I will fall and be caught, and held in the magnificent embrace of Love. Somehow, and in some way, I am part of this great mystery of death, resurrection, and life.

leaf 2 by Gail Purdy

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.  And all of us, with unveiled faces, seeing the glory of the Lord as though reflected in a mirror, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another; for this comes from the Lord, the Spirit. –2 Corinthians 3:17-18

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Love Mischief for the World

Nancy clownMy friend Nancy Bailey, a professional clown sometimes known as Mother Goose, has been up to much love mischief in her life. She tells this story of when she was a child growing up in Pennsylvania. “I walked across a neighbour’s pasture to the creek where I often played. There on the stones at the edge of the creek were several leg-hold traps set to capture fur-bearing animals. Horrified by what would happen to these creatures, I ran home to get a pencil and some paper. As I hurried back, I gathered a few sticks. I used them to spring the traps and left a note on each one saying, ‘Stop hurting animals!’ When I returned later, the traps were gone.” Yay, Nancy!

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Credits and References:
Quote from “Eyes of My Heart” by Steve Garnaas-Holmes Unfolding Light May 6, 2016
Leaf photos by Gail Purdy. Used with permission.
Photo of Mother Goose/Nancy Bailey used with permission.
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Shimmering Delight

sparkling waterIn March I was able to get away to Bowen Island for a few days of solitude. Often when I retreat there, I sit in the cottage watching the rain come and go. But this time it was sunny and warm.

As I quieted my soul and sat gazing at the ocean, I noticed how the sun shimmered off the water in the distance but not on the undisturbed water close to shore. Then a breeze caressed the water, and light dimpled and danced in front of me. Soon there was a shimmering path from heaven to earth that stopped at my feet.

Each day I saw the shimmering in the distance and watched the sparkling path emerge.

baptism of JesusOne afternoon I went to the other side of the island to Bowen Bay. The sea was beautiful and calming but didn’t reflect the light even though it was a sunny day. I listened to the sound of waves and birds; I read and prayed. After a while I noticed a dimple of light and then another. Within a few minutes I was found–a shimmering path of glory stretched across the water to me.

And that’s how God was with me on that retreat–no deep conversations, no profound insights, no new announcement–just a quiet shimmering, as if God was speaking to me in a new language.

A few weeks later, I was walking with a friend by the ocean. I struggled to be present and follow a conversation about a subject I knew little about. The cloudy day rendered the sea a dull brown. Then the sun peeked out from behind a cloud. The heavens opened and light shimmered off the water.

God was well pleased with us–delighting in my friend’s every word and grateful for my willingness to learn another new language.

And when Jesus also had been baptized and was praying, the heaven was opened, and the Holy Spirit descended upon him in bodily form like a dove.
And a voice came from heaven, “You are my Son, the Beloved; with you I
am well pleased.” 
–Luke 3:21-22

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Love Mischief for the World

TaxesWe all have diverse interests, gifts and ways we engage in love mischief with God. Near the end of tax season, a friend said to me, “I completed my ninety-ninth tax return today. I got paid for about half of them, but I don’t mind. Long ago I understood that God had given me a gift with numbers and accounting to bless others with, and I am happy to do it.”

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Credits and references:
“Sparkling Water” by boxer_bob Used with permission.
“Baptism of Christ” by Fr Lawrence Lew, O.P.. Used with permission.
Photo “Filing Taxes” by PT Money. Used with permission.
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The “Other” Who Saves Us

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I was talking with a friend about how we need to radically welcome the “other”–those who are different and make us feel uncomfortable. Rev.Stephanie Spellers says, “We need them in our lives and communities for our salvation.”

“How do they save us?” she asked.

Since then I’ve been carrying that question around with me. How is each person I meet–especially those who are different–transforming me?

If I think about it theoretically, I can answer it easily by putting people in categories of those who affirm, challenge, inspire or humble me. But when I do that, I feel a dis-ease in my body. I sense the Spirit nudging me to be specific and ask, “Lord, how is the person I am with right now saving me? How is this person bringing God’s kingdom or making the body of Christ whole?”

So I’ve been asking these questions and paying attention to how God might be answering them.

After Bible study one evening, I gave each person a hug goodbye. I embraced one fellow and his body trembled with delight. He exclaimed softly, as he often does when something really good happens, “Wowie, zowie!”

His childlike response touched me deeply. I got a sense of how God must feel when we reach out to embrace our Creator in prayer. I can now imagine God smiling and trembling with delight.

There are things I need for my salvation that this man cannot give. But what he has given me–wowie, zowie–is a glimpse of God!

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Then Peter said [to the lame beggar], “Silver or gold I do not have, but what I do have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk.” –Acts 3:6

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Love Mischief for the World

cup of waterPartners of SoulStream community have been sharing their stories of love mischief. Here is one from Rob Peterson who lives in Grand Rapids, Michigan. “On Holy Saturday I had an opportunity to join God in Flint, Michigan by serving at a water distribution centre. As the result of bureaucratic indifference and outright negligence, Flint’s water is contaminated with lead. Thousands of residents have been without safe water for months. With a few friends from church and dozens of others from across Michigan, we filled car after car with cases of water. We blessed people with kind words and prayers. We witnessed the fear-filled concern of parents for their children’s health. 

“I don’t know how that love-mischief really mattered, but God opened my heart once again to the reality of suffering. God let me into the quiet silence of God’s love for the broken-hearted as people rallied together to stand beside others and offer love and grace. 

“On that Holy Saturday God filled my car, my heart, not with water, but with a renewed hope that God’s community of friends matter as we participate in little acts of blessing and love.”

What love mischief are you and God doing to care for the earth?
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Credits and references:
“Art College Doormats” from https://radicalwelcome.wordpress.com/
“Saints Peter and John Healing the Lame Man” by Nicolas Poussin, 1655 .
Radical Welcome: Embracing God, the Other, and the Spirit of Transformation by Stephanie Spellers
“Friday Requirement” by Martin Cathrae. Used with permission.
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Turned

brooding skySomething significant has happened to me a few times now.

After a full day, unprocessed feelings can hang over me like a grey cloud. The theme of the conversation in my head often includes some disappointment in myself. I know these negative thoughts dissipate with time, so watching a movie or playing Tetris are helpful diversions. I would like to pray, but the desire to indulge in these numbing pastimes is strong.

Inevitably, the next morning when I am clear minded, I can identify the grey cloud of disappointment as a desolation that turns me away from God and the “helpful” solution as a deception. I realize I was deceived by arguments like, “Everyone needs a little fun” or “You’ve worked hard; you deserve a little down time.” Then I resolve not to be tricked again. But by the time evening rolls around, those arguments are quite convincing, and it’s my resolve that dissipates.

However, recently I had a different experience. This time when the grey cloud loomed, I had enough resolve left to open a book on prayer. It was Stephen Rossetti’s When the Lion Roars. A few paragraphs in and the cloud was forgotten. My heart instantly filled with the desire to open myself to “the sheer overflowing generosity of God” who wants to be one with me.

In a matter of minutes, I was moved from desolation to consolation. It was as if the Holy Spirit turned my gaze from the darkness to the light. Instead of feeling trapped in disappointment, I felt free. I wanted to pray. When I did, God didn’t engage the negative thoughts or feelings. God simply invited me to rest in love.

Afterwards when I pondered this quick and palpable change, I recalled two things. When Ignatius of Loyola was convalescing from a battle wound, he asked for something to read. The only book available, besides the Bible, was about the lives of the saints. He would have much rather read about knights and chivalrous heroes, but when he began to read about the saints an odd thing happened. His mood changed. He began to notice that whenever he thought about pursuing honour, pride and riches, he felt down. But when he thought about the saints, he felt joy. At first I wondered skeptically if Ignatius had simply exchanged one way of seeking honour for another, but now I understood. In the saints’ stories, he met God and was loved; that’s what brought him joy.

Procession of Christ Wikigallery

The second thing I recalled was a pivotal moment during a recent prayer retreat. We were invited to meditate on the painting above, “The Procession to Calvary” by Ridolfo Ghirlandaio. I was drawn to Simon of Cyrene who had his arms around the cross and was ready to lift the heavy load off Jesus. Of all the travellers–soldiers, disciples, women, and onlookers–Simon was closest in proximity to Jesus. If Simon just turned his head, he would be face to face with God. This brought tears to my eyes.

This is the amazing thing I learned: God doesn’t always need to unpack and heal what’s under every negative thought I have. Sometimes God chooses to do that, but more often those negative thoughts are like clouds that threaten to rain but never do. In the same sky, God is shining with sheer generosity.

Blue skies of scottsdale

Jesus said to her, “Mary!” She turned and said to him in Hebrew, “Rabbouni!” (which means Teacher). –John 20:16

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Love Mischief for the World

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I love the fact that the first person Jesus met after he rose from the dead was a woman. I doubt that was by chance. Likewise, the first person he told that he was the Messiah was also a woman (John 4:26). In first century Palestine, women had little status and were considered property, so what Jesus did was a big deal. Love mischief, indeed.

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Credits and References:
“Brooding Sky” by scyrene. Used with permission.
“Blue Skies of Scottsdale” by Dru Bloomfield. Used with permission
“The Procession to Calvary” by  Ridolfo Ghirlandaio,  1505 from Wikigallery. Used with permission. For more definition go to  https://www.flickr.com/photos/facesofancienteurope/16113956579/in/photolist-qxWeTz-gfr4Qe
“The Resurrection Day” Artist unknown; publisher of Bible Card. From Wikimedia. Used with permission.
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God So Loves the Earth

Crescent earth from Apollo 4This earth, this world that God loves so much, is beautiful and broken.

I have been asking God to show me ways I can participate in healing our planet. As I read and listen for God’s direction, I begin to see small steps I can take that will help shift our collective future.

One simple practice is eating mindfully. I regularly give thanks for the food I eat without giving much thought to how it connects me to God, others and creation. But Thich Nhat Hanh in The World We Have explains,

“When we eat mindfully, we’re in close touch with the food. The food we eat comes to us from nature, from living beings, and from the cosmos. To touch it with our mindfulness is to show our gratitude. Eating in mindfulness can be a great joy. . . The food we eat can reveal the interconnectedness of the universe, the Earth, all living beings, and ourselves. Each bite of vegetable, each drop of soy sauce, each piece of tofu contains the life of the sun and of the Earth. We can see and taste the whole universe in a piece of bread! We can see the meaning and value of life in those precious morsels of food.”

bread Evgeni Zotov

When we see and taste the value of life, we want to cherish and protect it.

Another practice that enables us to value life is the Ignatian Prayer of Examen. Here is a version of the Examen that can help us enjoy and care for the earth God loves.

  • All creation reflects the beauty and blessing of God’s image.
    Where was I most aware of this today?
  • Can I identify and pin-point how I made a conscious effort to care for God’s creation during this day?
  • What challenges or joys do I experience as I recall my care for creation?
  • How can I repair breaks in my relationship with creation, in my unspoken sense of superiority?
  • As I imagine tomorrow, I ask for the grace to see the Incarnate Christ in the dynamic interconnections of all Creation.

Wheat FarbenfroheWunderwelt

On this Earth Day
bless
and be blessed by
the holy ground beneath us
the heavenly sky above us
the beloved ones beside us

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Love Mischief for the World

A rocha logo

A Rocha International has been helping people world-wide to respond to the biblical mandate to care for creation. Their vision is “for the transformation of people and places by showing God’s love for all creation.” A Rocha communities offer live-in educational internships as well as educational resources, events and volunteer opportunities to help individuals, families, groups and churches live more sustainably and lovingly with the earth and her diverse inhabitants. To A Rocha love mischief with God means “inspiring hope and caring for creation.”

What love mischief are you and God doing to care for the earth?
 Let me know and I will include it in an upcoming post.

Credits and references:
“Crescent Earth from Apollo 4” by Jason Major. Used with permission.
“Bread” by Evgeni Zotov. (Photo of the father of the bride at a wedding in Bartang Valley, Tajikistan) Used with permission.
The World We Have: A Buddhist Approach to Peace and Ecology by Thich Nhat Hanh, 2008.
Ecological Examen by Joseph Carver, SJ
“Wheat” by FarbenfroheWunderwelt. Used with permission
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim, 2016.
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Goodbye, Rob

On April 6 friend and mentor Rob Des Cotes passed into glory. Rob was a pastor, spiritual director and retreat leader as well as a husband, father, and grandfather, musician, writer and artist. Hearing God’s call to go deeper in contemplative prayer and contemplative living, Rob gathered others drawn to Christ and formed Imago Dei Community. Through his life and work, Rob helped many people in the Vancouver area and around the world open our hearts and minds more fully to God.

In honour of Rob, here is a post I wrote a couple of years ago after attending one of his retreats.

Waves Chris Niekel

Immersed in an Ocean of Love

I awake with an emotional heaviness at 4 a.m. and remember what caused this feeling. I got hoodwinked by fear in a legitimate disguise: I saw an injustice and pushed the panic button–again. I ended up making a fuss over nothing, and now I wonder if those involved are getting frustrated with me.

I hate these holes in my bucket.

“If you were a leaky bucket and wanted to be filled with God’s love,” I heard Rob Des Cotes say at a prayer retreat not long ago, “you could either spend your life patching the holes or simply immerse yourself in the ocean of God’s love.”

When I heard Rob’s words, I imagined myself as that bucket–filled and surrounded with love. A deep ahhh relaxed my body.

God is loving me now at four in the morning. God doesn’t despise my weaknesses but sees these holes as openings through which I can be filled with love.

I breathe in and out and picture myself lying in God’s ocean of love. I hear the pebbles move, feel them shift under me as the cold water flows out and rushes in again. Salty waves flood my weaknesses and recede leaving every filament of their tattered edges as wet and vibrant as anemones.

In the morning my fears will have drifted out to sea; I will wonder why I was so worried. Even if my peers are wearied of me, I will not be undone. God is with me.

But here, now in the night, I don’t want a strategy for how to live with my weaknesses. Here and now, I just want to lie in the ocean of God’s love and feel God’s tireless, boundless love wash in and out of the holes in my soul.

sand beach When I awake, I am still with you. –Psalm 139:18b

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Love Mischief for the World

Rob-Des-CotesRob Des Cotes made much love mischief with God in his life. He and his wife, Ruth, walked the Camino de Santiago and enjoyed community life with A Rocha and Imago Dei. Rob wrote four books of meditations for spiritual direction, Fan the Flame, Higher Than I, Ultreia! (Go Higher) and Strength to Strength. There are now Imago Dei groups world wide. Their ministry is “to  encourage a deeper spirituality in the lives of Christians, to help recognize and welcome God’s transforming work in life, and to encourage a growing faith towards the life God is calling us to live in this world.” Rob lived life to the full and now he and God are making more love mischief in glory.

What love mischief are you and God doing to care for the earth?
 Let me know and I will include it in an upcoming post.

Credits:
“Waves” by Chris Niekel. Used with permission.
“Sandy Beach” by Donna Geissler. Used with permission.
Photo of Rob Des Cotes used with permission.
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim 2016
Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without permission from Esther Hizsa is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used provided there is a link to the original content and credit is given as follows: © Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016  http://www.estherhizsa.com
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