Naked and Unashamed

Abreha_and_Atsbeha_Church_-_Adam_and_Eve_01

God’s been listening to my thoughts again–not just the chatter in my head but the deep sighs of my heart.

You know those dreams where you’re scrambling to make something happen, it’s not coming together, and time’s running out? I’ve experienced that now more than once and wished I could wake up. While on my way to speak at a retreat, I was suddenly convinced I’d chosen the wrong outfit to wear. It’s June already, and there’s no way I’ll lose the weight I gained over the winter before summer arrives. More and more I feel like I’m living another dream: the one where I’m out in public completely naked.

I don’t want people to see me as I am. I want them to see me as I’d like to be.

Meanwhile, God hears the groans I will not pray and answers with a song.

Take, o take me as I am.
Summon out what I shall be.
Set your seal upon my heart
and live in me.

That song popped into my head one morning out of nowhere. I hadn’t heard it for a long time. In it God gave me words to pray for life as it is right now–between the dreaming and the coming true. In this song, I also heard God’s prayer for me: that I would take myself as I am–including my impatience around my own self-acceptance.

A few days after the Holy Spirit sang that song to me, Fred and I had dinner with old friends. The next night we shared a meal with new friends. None of these people are blind. They see us as we are and want to be with us, because they love us as we are.

Tears come as I write this. God is listening again.

God has found me hiding in the garden. “Come out,” God says softly. “Be naked and unashamed.”

Gardem of Eden

And the man and his wife were both naked, and were not ashamed.
–Genesis 3:25

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Love Mischief for the World

soulstream imagesToday I will join many from SoulStream, a dispersed Christian contemplative community, for a weekend retreat. I look forward to chatting, eating, laughing, and praying with them. During our time together, we will be invited to deepen our “trust that despite all evidence to the contrary, God will accomplish God’s loving redemption toward the fulfilment of all things in Christ” (one of our core values) and let ” the seed crack open” in us as we explore what love-mischief we can do for the world.

What love mischief are you and God doing to care for the earth?
 Let me know and I will include it in an upcoming post.

Credits and References:
“Take, O, Take Me as I Am” by John Bell
“All Life” by Ron Guest. Used with permission.
Adam and Eve depicted in a mural in Abreha wa Atsbeha Church, Ethiopia. From Wikimedia.
“Between the dreaming and the coming true” is the title of a book by Robert Benson.
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim, 2016.
Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without permission from Esther Hizsa is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used provided there is a link to the original content and credit is given as follows: © Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016.  http://www.estherhizsa.com

About Esther Hizsa

Esther is a spiritual director and writer. She lives in Burnaby with her husband, Fred, and they have two grown children and two grandchildren.
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3 Responses to Naked and Unashamed

  1. Gail Koombes says:

    Dear Esther, another good post. Remember that there is always someone, myself for one, that would love to be your winter weight:~)

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Pingback: Brave Thoughts | An Everyday Pilgrim

  3. Dave Small says:

    Excellent post!

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