Category Archives: Stories

Coming Home

Posted on June 16, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

Sometimes I feel likeevery part of me’s beenflung up in the airand caughtin slow motion floating, swirlingand falling leisurelydown to earth. Transitions are hard. Departures and arrivals unsettle me.I have to let it be and wait with You until all these parts of mefall … Continue reading →

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Less

Posted on June 9, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

I feel gratefulon sunny dayswhen more is given than I hoped for or imagined. But not so much on days that are less than great,with tedious moments and stress,disappointmentsand sadnessI can’t escape. I want to change the channel,change the scenery,change everyone … Continue reading →

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Posted on June 2, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

More.I want more time,more done in my day,more kilometres walked and biked,more dessert,another movie that I enjoyed as much as the last one,more kudos, wins, meaningful prayer times,as if more of anything would make me happier. Then I spend six days … Continue reading →

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Always

Posted on May 26, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

The disciples were scared spitlesswhen You sent them off two by two to preach and perform miracleswithout You.But they did it and came back full of joy with stories as long as Your arm. Then when You were arrested, beaten and … Continue reading →

Posted in Easter, Poetry, Reflections | Tagged Carivaggio, Esther Hizsa, Father Lawrence Lew, Frederick Buechner, Oh No!, Sent Out, spiritual director Burnaby, spiritual director Vancouver, The Ascension of Our Lord, The Incredulity of St. Thomas, The Sacred Journey | 1 Comment

Just Sit There and Let Me Love You

Posted on May 19, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

When my eyelid started twitching, I knew my body was stressed. “You can slow down,” I heard God say to me in a spiritual direction session. That week, with the same tender concern Pastor Ruth said, “You don’t have to … Continue reading →

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A Little Resurrection

Posted on May 12, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

I was all packed and ready to go. But not quite. I needed to go over a couple of sessions I would lead during the Living from the Heart course one more time. Now I had a spacious hour that … Continue reading →

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Notice Me

Posted on May 5, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

As soon as the participants started arriving at the retreat centreI noticed something in meelbowed to the front and shoved my self aside. She wanted a hug from everyone and pouted when she didn’t get it.At the dinner table,she told … Continue reading →

Posted in Childhood, compassion, Easter, Poetry, Reflections | Tagged Bernard Dupont, Esther Hizsa, Gordon Johnson, Michael Levine-Clark, spiritual director Burnaby, spiritual director Vancouver, Vervet Monkeys | 4 Comments

The Unholy Three

Posted on April 28, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

Fear is a powerful ally.It curbs my behaviour, motivates me, and keeps me safe.Would I be as nice if I didn’t fear judgment?Would I prepare and work so hard if I didn’t fear failure?Would I watch what I eat and … Continue reading →

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My Suffering

Posted on April 21, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

Sadness crept closer with each chapter I read. Then it slipped in beside me when the father left too. It was still there the next day and the day after that. Sadness kept coming in through the tiny crack of … Continue reading →

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Known

Posted on April 14, 2023 by Esther Hizsa

I am made of the earthand of its Creatorflesh and spirithuman, divineimpermanent and eternal. I will dieand before I dieI will have died and risen againhundreds of times. On the Saturdaybetween Good Fridayand Easter Sunday,I lay awake in the tomband … Continue reading →