Spinning and Waiting

Spider Web by E.P.EwingEver since my book’s come out, I’ve been feeling anxious and vulnerable. I prayed for God’s comfort and the images of the Mountain Ash tree and the Salzburg Cross, and Hafiz’s love poem came to me.

I sensed God saying, “This is hard. Lean back into my arms. Let me bear the weight.”

I rest back in God’s arms and the tightness in my chest–my unwelcome guest–is still there.

I’m working hard. Accomplishing things often brings a sense of relief. When I finally take a break, Fred and I watch a documentary that shows people in Japan dying from overwork. They even have a name for it: Karōshi.

I get out for a walk and notice light reflecting off a dewy spider web. I stop and watch the spider spin. She attaches a strand, then continues to reach and attach another until she gets to the centre. When the spider is done, she waits motionless for the food she needs to come to her.

I continue my walk and come across another spider web and another.

I see what you are saying to me, Lord: Wait. What you need will come to your fragile, beautiful soul.

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,
    and in his word I hope;
 my soul waits for the Lord
    more than those who watch for the morning,
    more than those who watch for the morning.
–Psalm 130:5,6

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Love Mischief for the World

Love by Dustin Gaffke

A fellow I know has a job emptying houses for demolition. Two days before one was about to be bulldozed, he discovered some teenagers squatting in it. They had all been aged out of B.C.’s foster care system. “We had some long conversations. I told them I knew what it was like to be homeless,” he said. “And I found four of them jobs.”

What love mischief are you and God doing to care for the earth?
Let me know and I will include it in an upcoming post.

Credits:
“Oh What A Tangled Web We Weave . . .” by E.P.Ewing. Used with permission.
“Love” by Dustin Gaffke. Used with permission.
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim, 2015.
Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without permission from Esther Hizsa is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used provided there is a link to the original content and credit is given as follows: © Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim 2013, 2014, 2015.  http://www.estherhizsa.com

About Esther Hizsa

Esther is a spiritual director and writer. She lives in Burnaby with her husband, Fred, and they have two grown children and two grandchildren.
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