Bumper Crop

Jesus told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. Whoever has ears, let them hear.” —Matthew 12:3-9

You scatter seeds of love on my path,
and by the time I recognize them, 
the birds have come and eaten them all. 

Then I will be the birds
lifting your eyes to see
love above and around
as blue as cloudless wonder. 

You scatter seeds of love in rocky places,
where trust is thin and roots wither
when old fears scorn and scorch. 

Then I will be the willows, oaks and maples shading your path,
the cool breeze tickling the back of your neck,
the rain nourishing your roots.

You scatter seeds of love, and some fall among sinewy beliefs
where memories prickle and choke.

Then I will be a sea of purple, blooming in the thistles,
for there is no place My love does not abide.

Sometimes Your seeds fall on good soil and produce
a kind thought, a creative idea, a poem
for thirty, sixty, perhaps, a hundred wandering pilgrims.

Yes, and in those graces, My seeds of love
are carried by birds,
shaded and watered in thin places,
thrive in thorns,
and produce a bumper crop
of lovers.

″If you become a bird and fly away from me,” said his mother, “I will be a tree that you come home to.” — Margaret Wise Brown, The Runaway Bunny

Credits and References: 
The Parable of the Sower by madison.murphy. Used with permission. 
Bumper Crop by Esther Hizsa, 2025 
Photo of Peaches by Unsplash from Freerange Stock
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What Luke Didn’t Tell You

 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him.  She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”

“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” –Luke 10: 38-42 (NIV)

Luke didn’t tell you  
that when Jesus answered me,  
he put his hand on my back 
and spoke so softly only I could hear. 
I didn’t feel ashamed; 
I felt seen, oddly hopeful.  

And Luke didn’t tell you what came next.  
Jesus got up and helped me. 
I protested. 
“Lord, I’m taking you away
from the others.”

But he laughed and said,
“Did you hear the one about the shepherd 
who left the ninety-nine to look for the one 
lost in the kitchen?”

Mary patted the seat beside her,
and when I sat down, she squeezed my hand.
Then, as we ate and drank,
Jesus repeated every word I missed.

When you find the lost sheep, wouldn’t you hoist it up on your shoulders, feeling wonderful? — Luke 15:5 (Voice)

Credits and References:
St Martha and St Mary Stained glass window from St Andrew’s Presbyterian church in Toronto. Photo by  Fr Lawrence Lew, O.P. Used with permission.
What Luke Didn’t Tell You by Esther Hizsa, 2025
Lost Little Lamb by Matthew Kirkland. Used with permission.
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A Cool Hand on My Forehead

Trust, 
I tell myself
as I cycle in the early morning mist.
I need to trust
I’ll receive 
what I need, 
know what to do. 
I can let go of my life 
and rest in Your love. 

I wish I could
trust,
rest,
stop thinking, thinking,
thinking about
the spinning tops I can’t corral,
wanting them to land,
fearing where they will.

I know, You say,
and my heart softens.

Then, after a long pause,
This is suffering.

I’m suddenly aware
I’ve stopped breathing
and gasp for breath,
take another.

I breathe 
and pedal
Your words
a cool hand
on my forehead,
Your goodness
opening me 
to the goodness of this moment, 
the wonder that goodness is possible 
in a world of spinning uncertainties.

It’s a lie, any talk of God that doesn’t comfort you.
–Meister Eckhart (1260-1328)

Credits and References:
Way Still On by Nirmal Adhikari. Used with permission
A Cool Hand on My Forehead by Esther Hizsa, 2025.
Boasting about Tomorrow by ON BORROWED TIME.Used with permission.
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Rabbit Trails

I follow any lead 
that will take me to the future I desire, 
hop down each trail, 
only to sit back on my haunches 
when it ends with the word: 
trust. 

You know what I need 
and are labouring even now 
to give me, 
to give every living thing
grace upon grace.

We cannot always trace God’s hand, but we can always trust God’s heart.
–Charles Spurgeon

Credits and References:
Rabbit by Karen. Used with permission.
Rabbit Trails by Esther Hizsa, 2025.
Breakfast in the Marigolds by Audrey. Used with permission.
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Disappointed

When old fears emerge,
something in me is disappointed
and wishes I’d get over it 
and move on.

She (this part of me) has the wisdom of Jesus,
knows the truth that will set me free, 
but lacks his compassion
and patience.

He finds her pouting,
frustrated.
Nothing gets done around here 
unless I do it, she says. 

She wants a clean house, 
without a speck of fear 
hiding in a corner
or under the rug.

She longs for
peace, peace, peace.

I know you do,
says Jesus, sitting down beside her.
I long for that, too.

He remembers the dark and cloudy day
I was scattered and lost.

He takes my hand 
and puts it on his heart.
I feel the pulse 
of peace, peace, peace 
and see him,
like a shepherd,
bringing
every part of me
home. 

For this is what the Sovereign Lord says: I myself will search and find my sheep. I will be like a shepherd looking for his scattered flock. I will find my sheep and rescue them from all the places where they were scattered on that dark and cloudy day…  I myself will tend my sheep and give them a place to lie down in peace, says the Sovereign Lord.  I will search for my lost ones who strayed away, and I will bring them safely home again. –Ezekiel 34:11-12,15-16

Credits and References:
“Lament” by INTVGene. Used with permission.
Disappointed by Esther Hizsa, 2025.
Stained Glass of the Good Shepherd by Alfred Handel. Photo by Tony Hudson. Creative Commons.
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The Joy You Are

Conspicuous by its absence, 
I wondered if my fear of disaster 
had left for good 
but no 
that part of me 
revealed herself 
in an argument. 

Arguments are good for that. 

I had thought, 
since I survived my worst-case scenario, 
her angst would ease off. 

Yes, she says. It helped, 
but it also 
proved my point.
Disaster happened,
and it could happen again
unless you change yourself.

There’s the hook:
the worry that
I have a lurking tendency
which will render me
unlovable and alone
on skid row.

I gently invite fear
to sit with me in the silence
and listen.

What we hear is
a voice, a deep sigh that says,
I can’t.
I can’t change myself.

The Inner Voice of Love adds,
Nor can we change others
or their capacity to bear with our inadequacies.

Transformation is received
not attained,
and My goal isn’t
to make you acceptable
but to lighten the fear
that you’re not
and brighten the joy
you are.

Behold the One beholding you and smiling.
–Anthony de Mello

Credits and References:
Bird by Magnus Bråth. Used with permission.
The Joy You Are by Esther Hizsa, 2025.
Willow Flycatcher 2-20110613 by Kenneth Cole Schneider. Used with permission.
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Rest in Love

Listen! The Lord, the Eternal, the Holy One of Israel says,
“In returning and rest, you will be saved.
In quietness and trust you will find strength.”
–Isaiah 30:15 (The Voice)

The sun is setting in the west 
And the birds begin to sing their rhapsody of rest 
And I rest in love / Rest to give love 
Rest to hold love / Rest to be love  
–Sara Thomsen,  Rhapsody of Rest

Just sit there
and let Me love you, 
You said to me one morning.

As I did, I realized 
You say this
every morning
to everyone. 

I began to hear
Your summons
in every moment.
When I paused to listen,
I rested there
in Your beauty.  

Your kingdom came,
Your will was done.

When we rest in love,
we join You in
loving
and saving
the world.

Come to me, all you who are weary and are carrying heavy burdens,
and I will give you rest.
–Matthew 11:28 (NRSVUE)

Credits and References:
Landkaartje by  Sylvia Sassen. Used with permission.
Rest in Love by Esther Hizsa, 2025.
Amelia Resting by Donnie Ray Jones. Used with permission.
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Always Coming to Us in Love

Our basic stance in life and toward God is one of receptivity rather than achievement. This is the heart of the contemplative way: receptivity to God who is always coming to us in love.SoulStream Community, Values

I consider how God works and labours for me in all things created on the face of the earth… Ignatius of Loyola, Contemplation on Divine Love, The Spiritual Exercises

What I’m trying to do here is get you to relax, not be so preoccupied with getting so you can respond to God’s giving. –Luke 12:29 (The Message)

You are always
coming to us in love.

I was about to jump ahead,
and my friend said, 
“Let’s sit with this a while,”
and I felt my body relax.

On a walk, 
I noticed
my breath
emptying and receiving,
emptying and receiving.

I was struggling with
something I could not change,
then imagined You,
unperturbed,
working for me.

More often I find myself
enjoying the task
I’m doing 
instead of
rushing to get it done.

On a long bicycle ride,
in the glory
of wide open spaces,
in the company
of hills, fields, trees,
poppies, marmots,
horses, cattle and deer,
a thought came to me–
wisdom and a way forward.

Nothing we do
or don’t do
stops you.

You are always 
coming to us,
freeing us to
receive love,
give love,
hold love,
and be love.

The sun is shining in the south
And I breathe you in, and I breathe you out
And I breathe in love / Breathe out to give love
Breathe in to hold love / Breathe out to be love
Sara Thomsen, Rhapsody of Rest

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Credits and References:
“Kodiak and the butterfly” by doug ellis. Used with permission. 
Always Coming to Us in Love by Esther Hizsa, 2025
Park bench by steve p2008 Used with permission
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This Beautiful Now

In returning and rest, you will be saved.
In quietness and trust you will find strength. 
–Isaiah 30:15 (The Voice)

I forget
it takes time 
to settle my nervous system, 
takes intention 
to notice 
my feet
aren’t touching the ground. 

All the spaciousness 
I long for 
is right here 
in this breath. 
Everything I need 
has already been given. 

I can come home 
to myself, 
to You, 
to this moment 
now,
in this
beautiful
now.  

The morning glories and the sunflowers turn naturally toward the light, but we have to be taught, it seems. –Richard Rohr

Credits and References:
White morning glory by John Tann. Used with permission. 
This Breath by Esther Hizsa, 2025.
Sunflowers by Stephen Ransom. Used with permission.
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The Conversion of Rosie: Part Two

 As evening came, Jesus said to his disciples, “Let’s cross to the other side of the lake.” So they took Jesus in the boat and started out, leaving the crowds behind (although other boats followed). But soon a fierce storm came up. High waves were breaking into the boat, and it began to fill with water. Jesus was sleeping at the back of the boat with his head on a cushion. The disciples woke him up, shouting, “Teacher, don’t you care that we’re going to drown?” When Jesus woke up, he rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Silence! Be still!” Suddenly the wind stopped, and there was a great calm. Mark 4:35-39 (NIV)

While we were camping,  
a stranger made a mistake,  
and blamed me  
for her predicament.  

She was too angry to be reasoned with, 
and I knew I wasn’t responsible  
for her disappointment. 
Yet, I was caught in a stormy loop
of justifying and second-guessing my decision 
not to rescue her.  

It didn’t subside 
until I woke Christ,
sleeping in the tent.
When he saw the storm,
he looked at me and said,
“Well, that was unpleasant.”

The wind stopped,
and there was a great calm.

But the storm resumed
the next morning
as I rode from Oliver to Summerland.
This time, Christ was asleep
on the back of my bike.
So I awakened him with a song,  

Make me an instrument
Born of your peace
As I let go
As I release…

I sang it again and again as I rode,
and Christ reminded me 
that whatever decision I made,
he would be with me.
Then, he shifted my focus
from moralizing
to noticing
how much power this had over me
and feeling
the storm gently subside. 

And it did.

I cycled on in peace
with rocky bluffs on my left,
Okanagan Lake on my right,
and a tailwind behind
until I got a flat.

Then, I awakened Christ 
on my cell phone,
and Fred picked me up,
spotting my red jersey
a mile away.

Make me an instrument
Born of thy peace
As I let go
As I release
Make me an instrument
Humble and free
As I awaken the living Christ in me
–Kurt Van Sickle

Notes, Credits and References:
You can find The Conversion of Rosie: Part One on An Everyday Pilgrim, May 10, 2025.
Jesus Calms the Storm, photo by Jim Forest, iconographer: Jack Pachuta. Used with permission.
The Conversion of Rosie: Part Two by Esther Hizsa, 2025
Okanagan Lake, Kickininee Provincial Park, Summerland, BC., by GoToVan Used with permission. 
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