Category Archives: Stories

Come Back

Posted on September 24, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

As autumn arrives, I find myself with little energy or enthusiasm. I have responsibilities, work to do, and practices to return to but lack the desire to do any of it. I don’t see a clear path forward as Covid … Continue reading →

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Sages

Posted on September 17, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

Fred and I spent a week camping on the southwest coast of Vancouver Island and met many trees there. Sages, you are.You welcome each moment as it is for hundreds of years alive in death content where you are contentin … Continue reading →

Posted in Creation, Justice, Poetry, Reflections | Tagged China Beach, Esther Hizsa, Fairy Creek, Harris Creek Sitka, Juan de Fuca Provincial Park, Sitka Spruce, spiritual director Burnaby, spiritual director Vancouver | Leave a comment

Stop Teaching a Pig to Sing

Posted on September 10, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

“Don’t teach a pig to sing. It wastes your time and irritates the pig.” I read that quote in Anthony de Mello’s little book Rediscovering Life: Awaken to Reality right after I wrote last week’s blog post. Tony’s words woke … Continue reading →

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Come Home, Sweetheart

Posted on September 3, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

Sunny dayslong bike ridespeaches and time–lots of leisurely time to enjoy momentswithout conflictdeadlines or problems to solve. Then the rain we needed cameto put out the firesalong with the restrictions we needed to keep us all safe.News kept coming from Haiti … Continue reading →

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Offering Kindness

Posted on August 27, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

“When I read your blog I hear how much you’ve changed in the past year,” my friend said. “You’re a lot kinder to yourself.” I smiled and recalled how often I used to hear, “You’re so hard on yourself.” I … Continue reading →

Posted in compassion, Reflections, Spiritual Direction | Tagged 1 Corinthians 13, Bonnie Henry, Brené Brown, Care, Esther Hizsa, FFTs, kindness, Matthew 19:19, pxfuel, spiritual director Burnaby, spiritual director Vancouver, Tanti Ruwani | 2 Comments

The Valley of the Shadow of Blame

Posted on August 20, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

Twenty-four hours before leaving on a bike trip, I had two conversations in which I learned that I’d hurt people I love very much. For the next three days, I was going to be alone with that thought for long … Continue reading →

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Being Vulnerable

Posted on August 13, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

“How can you be so vulnerable?” readers have asked me over the years. That question makes me nervous. Am I too vulnerable? What criticism have I invited? Then I hear from these askers the most common response to my honesty: … Continue reading →

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Photosynthesizing

Posted on August 6, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

I told my spiritual director about my compulsion to be outside, my recent episode of anxiety, and Heidi’s horticultural house call. “I felt like I was doing so much better. People have even commented that I’m more relaxed than I … Continue reading →

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Root Rot

Posted on July 27, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

“You see these roots here? They’re brown and have no filaments on them.” My daughter, Heidi, sat on our balcony holding my poor, naked Christmas cactus and pulled away the old soil and dead roots. “No wonder the leaves are … Continue reading →

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Creation Calls

Posted on July 23, 2021 by Esther Hizsa

Fred retired this year and, with his unrestricted schedule and my flexible one, we’ve spent a lot of time outside. Our last camping trip was to E.C. Manning Park where we hiked into alpine meadows, kayaked on Lightning Lake, and … Continue reading →