I feel grateful
on sunny days
when more is given than I 
hoped for or imagined.

But not so much
on days that are less than great,
with tedious moments and stress,
disappointments
and sadness
I can’t escape.

I want to change the channel,
change the scenery,
change everyone around me,
including myself,
and be done
with my anxious, myopic tendencies.

And You say,
(like You always do),
Oh, my love,
this is hard.
This is suffering.

And then You tell me (again),
You don’t need to change a thing.
I’m right here,
under the boredom,
stress,
disappointment,
fear,
and sadness. 

Wait with Me. 
In the less,
there is more.

You make it sound so easy,
I say.

It’s not, You reply.
It’s probably the hardest thing
you’ll ever do.

Do not run or fly away in order to become free.
Rather go deep into the narrow space given you.
There you will find God and all things.
–Gustave Thibon

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Love Mischief for the World

Sometimes we need a song like “Landlady” by U2 (lyrics here), Underneath the Shadow by Tom Wuest or Restless by Audrey Assad (lyrics here) to help us in our waiting.

What love mischief are you and God doing for the world?
Let me know and I will include it in an upcoming post.

Credits and References:
“boredom” by jean olahus. Used with permission.
“Less” by Esther Hizsa, 2023.
“Wait” by MissTitty. Used with permission.

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