The voice I would listen to spoke to me about my relationship with food.
Before we left on vacation, I discovered Geneen Roth’s book Women, Food and God. In it Roth talks about the guidelines for eating that have transformed her life. Instead of thinking of them as rules, she thinks of them this way: If love could speak to me about food, this is what it would say.
Roth’s guidelines urged me to be fully present when I eat, to listen to my body, and to enjoy each mouthful of food with “gusto and pleasure.” God was inviting me to eat contemplatively.
That reminded me of SoulStream’s commitment to “attentively respond to the Spirit’s presence in our daily choices.” The Spirit will help us listen to our bodies and help us choose what, when, where, how, and how much to eat.
As I tried to eat contemplatively, the Spirit nudged me to consider the questions Roth asks in her book. Why do I overeat? What feelings am I avoiding? Do I wish I were somewhere else? Can I love my body?
As God and I walk together with these questions, I feel the discomfort they raise. I resist God’s interference in my life.
But Love stops and waits with me in my resistance. God waits for me to see that there are no other roads but this one. This is the road to freedom.
Still you were ever near to me,
You waited for me to see.
Now You guide me with your counsel,
You hold me in your heart.
– Psalm 73:23, 24
from Psalms for Praying
by Nan C. Merrill