A Deep Wisdom

Golden Coast III Basheer TomePublishing the posts Being “That Woman” and God in the Dark: Theory left me feeling quite vulnerable to people’s reactions. Reason reminded me that God was with me, and I would be fine. But the little girl in me saw thick walls of darkness closing in.

Reason doubled its efforts. “There is nothing to be afraid of,” it reassured me and pointed to the good that came out of it. But, if you’ve ever tried to convince a frightened child of anything, you know their minds are impervious to adult rationale.

Eventually a Voice did comfort me. It spoke from a place that was deeper than my fears.

Deep called to deep. Waves washed over me. Truth seeped in through the cracks and reminded me of Julian of Norwich’s words. “We are not just made by God, we are made of God.”

I pictured myself made of the essence of God, alive in a shimmering world made of God. You are made of love and surrounded in love.

I heard what Julian heard deep within me. Others have too.

I visited a friend who has been living in a spiritual desert for a while now. She told me, “But something has changed. I used to feel like God was out there, apart from me. I don’t feel that way any more. I know now: I am in God.”

We’ve read that in scripture and heard it said a million times. But it’s hard to receive it until we hear it from within, spoken by the One who made us.

And what opens us to hear that Voice? A deep fear calling out for a deeper wisdom.

wave coast by wonderlane


Deep calls to deep

at the thunder of your waterfalls;
All your waves and your billows 
have washed over me.
By day You lead me in steadfast love;
at night your song is with me,
prayer from the Heart of my heart.
–Psalm 42:7, 8
Psalms for Praying; An Invitation to Wholeness by Nan C. Merrill

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Love Mischief for the World

Love by Dustin Gaffke

In 1999, Lloyd Bernhardt and Kim Schachte went to Guatemala to adopt their daughter. Their journey sparked a passion for the culture of the country and inspired a desire to better the lives of the farmers and families living and working in the coffee industry. The couple returned to Vancouver and, in 2003, launched Ethical Bean Coffee.

What love mischief are you and God doing to care for the earth?
Let me know and I will include it in an upcoming post.

Credits and references:
“Golden Coast :III” by Basheer Tome. Used with permission.
“Wave Coast” by Wonderlane. Used with permission.
“Love” by Dustin Gaffke. Used with permission.
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim, 2015.
Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without permission from Esther Hizsa is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used provided there is a link to the original content and credit is given as follows: © Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim 2013, 2014, 2015.  http://www.estherhizsa.com

About Esther Hizsa

Esther is a spiritual director and writer. She lives in Burnaby with her husband, Fred, and they have two grown children and two grandchildren.
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One Response to A Deep Wisdom

  1. Dave Small says:

    Thanks for the wonderful post Esther.

    What a powerful quotation: “We are not just made by God, we are made of God.”

    Liked by 1 person

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