Author Archives: Esther Hizsa

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About Esther Hizsa

Esther is a writer, spiritual director, and cofacilitates contemplative retreats and courses. She lives in Vernon, B.C. with her husband, Fred.

Another Disguise

God comes to you disguised as your life. –Paula D’Arcy Dust to dust is not nothing to nothing as if dust were not precious, as if returning to dust meant our lives didn’t matter,  as if we could disappear without a trace, as if God could … Continue reading

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Room to Be

“Look at all your plants!” my guest said. “They’re so healthy.”  Before I could stop myself, I recounted the story of my rare cactus who died because I misunderstood her.  Later, as I walked to church, I noticed how I’m quick to balance … Continue reading

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Found

As I return and rest, I feel gentle hands unfolding a crumpled part of me, smoothing it to the edges.  Now She’s softening the creases, straightening the bent back corner, and tracing my words with Her finger. I feel Her reading my thoughts, holding the whole story.I … Continue reading

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Making Light

You are the light of the world.–Matthew 5:14 We must let go of outcomes. Suffering is caused by not accepting things as they are, not admitting we are powerless to control the future.  I’m learning to accept my powerlessness. I try to notice … Continue reading

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An Old Story

Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. –Matthew 4:1 (NIV) I know how it happened to Jesus,human as he was,just like me. The tempter came as a thoughtin Jesus’ head, in … Continue reading

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Return Again

Return again, return againReturn to the land of your soulReturn again, return againReturn to the land of your soul Return to what you areReturn to who you areReturn to where you are born and reborn again. –Shaina Noll, Return Again Come … Continue reading

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What Was

After Mom passed, sadness drifted in and out of my days like a hum in the distance, clearer whenever I looked its way.  It didn’t come from the one who had mothered my mother, nor the one who kept wishing for more. It came … Continue reading

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Morning Light

The moment I discovered,  with the clarity life brings, that my idea was a good idea, and I should’ve acted on it, a grey cluster of emotions emerged.I felt its weight in my chest.  Why did I doubt myself? What do I do now? The … Continue reading

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Come In

It was comical, really.The day before my mother died,there was a clatter.Clear as a bell, my mom, who hadn’t eaten or spoken for days, called out,“Come in!”“I just dropped something on the floor, ” I said.“Come in!” she said againand went … Continue reading

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Bringing My Mother to Jesus

A few days later, when Jesus again entered Capernaum, the people heard that he had come home. They gathered in such large numbers that there was no room left, not even outside the door, and he preached the word to … Continue reading

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