I’m not unhappy. 
Life is full and good, 
but the joy of Your resurrection eludes me.

I went to the empty tomb, the garden, the locked room.
I walked to Emmaus and back to Galilee.
You appeared to them
but not to me.

I hear their stories, witness their surprise,
and sense their relief, wonder, and hope.

They didn’t do anything 
to experience resurrection.
It just happened.

Sometimes, we choose a posture of receiving
and let go of making things happen.

Other times
it chooses us
after we’ve tried everything
and there’s nowhere left to be
except with our longing,
nothing else to do
except to watch and wait.

“Julian of Norwich wrote, ‘For I saw Him and I sought Him, and I had Him and I lacked Him.’…The lack of the experience of God is also the gift of God. For the lack of the experience of God deepens the longings for God, and it’s the longings for God that echoes God’s infinite longings for us.”
— James Finley, Turning to the Mystics, Julian of Norwich, Session 1.

A Better Resurrection words by Christina Rosetti composed and sung by Steve Bell.

Credits and References:
“The Way to Emmaus” by Robert Zünd, Public domain, via Wikimedia Commons.
“Waiting for Resurrection” by Esther Hizsa, 2024

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