Waiting

What if the one you are waiting for never comes?

It was only choir practice at the little United Church a mile away. My friend Edith and I were thirteen years old and proud to be the youngest members. Every Thursday, at seven-forty-five, after a couple in our church had milked their cows and changed their clothes, they would pull into our driveway to give me a ride.

That winter evening, at seven-forty, I got ready and waited in the kitchen. Ten minutes later, I was overheating and took off my toque and mitts. Five minutes after that, I needed to use the bathroom but didn’t dare leave my post. We would be late now, and they’d be in a hurry when they arrived.

At eight o’clock, a car drove by in the opposite direction. I watched the red taillights disappear down the gravel road.

At eight-fifteen, I took off my coat and boots and headed upstairs to my room.

“I thought you were going to the church,” my dad said.

“My ride didn’t come,” I replied. “I guess they forgot about me.”

I must not be that important, I thought and added that thought to all the other evidence I had collected that proved I didn’t matter.

For years after that Thursday night, waiting for anyone made me nervous. Finally, I learned to have a backup plan, even if it was only telling myself it wouldn’t be the end of me if they didn’t come.

This Sunday, Advent begins. It’s a whole season of waiting, and I am thrilled. I am thrilled because I know the One I am waiting for will come. He always does.

For hundreds of years, Israel waited for their Messiah. Finally, he came. The angel Gabriel announced the good news to a young virgin named Mary. She became pregnant by the Holy Spirit and gave birth to the Saviour of the world in Bethlehem, just as the prophets said.

Jesus came to earth because we matter. His Spirit remains with us now because we always will.

The people walking in darkness
    have seen a great light;
on those living in the land of deep darkness
    a light has dawned…
For to us a child is born,
    to us a son is given,
    and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
    Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
    Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
       
   — Isaiah 9:2,6

Credits:
Advent 1 by grosskopf_photography Used with permission.
“Riding into the Sunset” by Wes Peck. Used with permission.
“Waiting” was originally published on this blog in 2014 and in Seed Cracked Open in 2019. 
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim, 2025.
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About Esther Hizsa

Esther is a writer, spiritual director, and cofacilitates contemplative retreats and courses. She lives in Vernon, B.C. with her husband, Fred.
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1 Response to Waiting

  1. Susan King's avatar Susan King says:

    Beautiful!  Thank you. 

    Peace,

    Susan

    “You are the light of the world” – Jesus of Nazareth

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