Make Peace with Your Helplessness

Make peace with your helplessness.

You can’t change the past 
or control the future. 
What is 
what is.

Feel your anger.
Watch it rise up 
and look for someone to blame. 
Even if it is their fault 
or yours or God’s, 
it doesn’t change a thing. 
You’re still here. 
You still feel trapped, 
like the bottom has fallen out of your world. 

Notice how you go over what happened 
again and again and again– 
what went wrong, 
what could have been done, 
what you would do next time.
All this enlightenment 
may prevent life from repeating itself 
but it can’t undo this. 

It takes time to 
make peace with your helplessness. 
But as you stay present there 
you discover 
it threatens but doesn’t kill 
knocks down but can’t destroy 

Eventually you 
feel a softening, 
shift your weight 
and find 
a hidden strength 
that enables you to thrive 
right where you are 

in the place you least expected 
to see yourself 

We are afflicted in every way but not crushed,
perplexed but not driven to despair,
persecuted but not forsaken,
struck down but not destroyed,
always carrying around in the body the death of Jesus,
so that the life of Jesus may also be made visible in our bodies.
–2 Corinthians 8-10 (NRSVUE)

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Love Mischief for the World

“Go and make peace with your helplessness,” Alfred Bell told his son, Steve, who was distraught when his father’s cancer returned. As Steve grieved the death of his father, a song came to him that he sang for his audience at Como Lake United Church last Friday. It was good to hear Steve in person again and let the love mischief of his stories and music inspire love mischief in me.

What love mischief are you and God doing for the world?
Let me know and I will include it in an upcoming post.

Credits and References:
“Dove of Peace” photo by Don Sutherland. Used with permission. 
“Flower blooming during sunrise” by Viraj Shah. Creative Commons Licence.
© Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim, 2022.
The unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without permission from Esther Hizsa is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used provided there is a link to the original content and credit is given as follows: © Esther Hizsa, An Everyday Pilgrim 2013-2022.

About Esther Hizsa

Esther is a spiritual director and writer. She lives in Burnaby with her husband, Fred, and they have two grown children and two grandchildren.
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4 Responses to Make Peace with Your Helplessness

  1. Martha Hekman says:

    A very special post for me. I’ve read and reread it—and then read it to my husband. Such truth—not easy or painless, but hopeful. Thank you. Martha


    Liked by 1 person

  2. Esther Hizsa says:

    Thank you, Martha. That’s so good to hear.


  3. Deb Steinkamp says:

    Lovely, Esther!

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Esther Hizsa says:

    Thanks so much, Deb.


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